Reflection

Choices

2011-08-29T06:36:00.000-07:00

I'm not really a good speaker where can take you go for a few round before go to the main point.

Today, I just talk straight to the point. Just feel very awkward after I have finished my sentence.

The situation become silent for a few second.

As expected, counter offer come in.

Is not just about the monetary reward, is more than that - opportunity.

How many of us able to gain such valuable opportunity?

He agreed that is a good choice, but advise me that I can't compare apple with orange.

Life is about making choices and decisions. I have made up my mind.

I will stick to my decision for now.

Dilemma

2011-08-22T08:52:00.000-07:00

矛盾！

I thought it is better for me to fail the interview. Don't know what is going right and I got the job offer.

I don't know this is good or bad. The positive side is I'm able to convince the interviewers to grant me a chance to work at MNC. At least I know where is my market values. Out of 100+ applicants, several stage of interview, I'm managed to secure this job.

The down side is I have to leave my current job, where I miss my colleagues, workers and friends. It is a very hard decision. I hope that I will fail the interview, life would be easier. No need to choose, only work!

Now being stuck at the middle. Both looks good, but the MNC looks better. On the other hand, the people at my current company is friendly and helpful.

Life is about making choices and decisions.

Changing Job II

2011-08-09T05:33:00.000-07:00

Feeling contradiction now.

Firstly, I have rejected the interview. But the HR guy is so nice, asking me what is my consideration for rejecting the interview. He asked me to reconsider my decision, open for any opportunity that approaches.

Feeling of guilty of rejecting people advice, So I gave myself a chance to attend the interview. Feeling that at least I will not regret for attending the interview, at the same time to gain experience.

He said there is a few stage where you have to pass the interview. When he call me for phone interview, I was working and answer that without any much thought. To my surprise, I was shortlisted for the next interview, which I have attended for today.

For today, he just explained to me that there is 100+ people apply for this position. Out of the 100+ people applied, they have shortlisted to 40+ for phone interview and now come to 16 of us. Of course, they have search our profile online, monitoring what we are doing on line.

I'm not sure whether I'm considered lucky or what? Reaching this stage of interview and have a chance to work at MNC, is the dream of many graduates to die for. But I'm still under consideration. @.@

Going to there corporate office is amazing. Their office is like a lounge. Decorated with pond, spacious design, great lighting. I am so impressed with their office. Feeling great to work at their office. Too bad, most probably will work in the factory.

The interview room also different, instead of traditional rectangular table, they have a round table where 3 panels sitting on it. The atmosphere is quite relax as it looks like a small discussion rather than interview. The people is great and I get a South African as one of the panels. I can say that it is a great experience being interviewed at MNC.

I see that as an experience, even if I didn't get it, I appreciate all the experience that I gained. But if I managed to get the job, should I consider to change job?

I also don't have the answer, for now...

xoxo

Changing job?

2011-08-03T06:12:00.000-07:00

I keep thinking of this issue for this few days. Either attend or reject the interview? I know that is a great opportunity that not everyone can get. Yet I'm still doubting on that offer.

Yesterday I have received their call. They just inform me that on next week there will be an interview. At that time, I have doubted for a while, I have informed them that I'm working now, so most probably I will reject the interview. The guy just say come on~ I reply that I know this is a big MNC. The company is voted as top 50 as the world's most attractive employers. Some more their products are bought by every household. Even if you are from a poor family, you will also have their products. Gosh~ This explain why I'm facing difficulty in making decision.

Currently I'm quite satisfied with my company. Except there is some ridiculous rules, hot environment, the other things are ok. My head is really nice, I have heard some terrible and mean head, but mine is nice, he has different leadership style than other head. I even heard that some heads used power and fear to conquer their staffs and workers. But mine head is using different approach, he is approachable, some even say that when he is scold by Tan Sri, he only keep quite and admit it. All my colleagues admit this fact. Even some kutuk here kutuk there, yet the above fact is that they never deny.

Moreover, my colleagues are fantastic, always group together can blow water, very funny joke and this make the office alive. The assistants are helpful, although they are foreigners, they really respect me and this is how we thrust each others. Not to mention both trainees in my office, my lunch companion and we always group together to chat. Sometimes naughty and ignore my orders, generally they make the whole office wonderful. The salary is quite high for an engineer in my company.

Today, I have made up my choice. I message the HR and inform them that I would like to pull out of the program and I will not attend the next week interview. I thought the answer that I get is OK. NOTED. But to my surprise is the HR ask why I want to pull out? any concerns? I just say that I have found a job and assigned to a project. He replied me that don worry, come for interview. Open ur doors to oportunities. Its ok. Experience and exposure first.

Wow~ I saw his message and I'm stunned. How good this HR is, he is so passionate to help all the job seekers and fresh graduate. I didn't reply his message as I can't make up my mind. They are so good people, good reputation and household name.

Now is time to make a decision. Go for interview first, if not ok, at least I still have current company. If another opportunity come, grab it and never look back. I guess outside there got many people want to get in, if they know that I'm doubting on the choice, sure they will kill me.

For now, take leave and go interview. Only God know what is the outcome.

xoxo

Unemployed

2011-05-25T09:29:00.000-07:00

After graduated from university, now I am unemployed. So for this period, I must maximize every time that I have before I am trap in the capitalist system.

When there is holiday, I will choose to travel. This time traveled 2 places in 2 weeks. The first is Kuching and the second is Siem Reap, Combodia. Kuching is the state capital of Sarawak, went there to eat their famous Kolo Mee and Laksa. It was delicious. I have the experience to go to Sarawak Culture Village, Fairy Cave and Wind Cave. It was a fun journey, is more comfortable than my second journey.

My second journey is to one of the wonders in the world - Angkor Wat. The first time looking at Angkor Wat, I was shocked and impressed. Such ancient buildings that can withstand the test of time. We have bought 3 days pass and the first 2 days went to visit all the temples in Siem Reap. The third day we go to Tonle Sap. Tonle Sap leaves great impression to me. When we need water, we have to pump out the water ourselves. Malaysians should be grateful when they can get water by turning on the tap. Only that I notice that water is precious, especially in developing country.

Scenario 1
A: Do u notice that there is no obesity people in Cambodia?
B: Yaloh.
A: Surelah, they need to work hard for life, unlike us sit in front of the computer have internet, FB and working, then eat and sleep.
B: Haha~

Scenario 2
A: People in Cambodia are quite dark.
B: The sun here is very hot.
C: We just be here in 5 days and we get darker than before.
B: Even when we used sun protection.
Can you imagine the heat that they expose?

Scenario 3
A: You can get the fresh water here in Cambodia with little charge.
B: You can get the first 20m3 water in Selagor for free.
Wakaka~

Now I already pokai. Being unemployed but spend like millionaire, so for next year trip, I didn't buy any Air Asia ticket. I can't believe that I miss this opportunity for now. May be next time have to travel in Business class.

xoxo

Comradeship

2011-05-01T09:07:00.000-07:00

Comradeship was tested when troubles appeared. This is what I learned for this few weeks.

Few weeks ago, a few students have troubles and I have shown my solidarity during the whole procedure.

A few days ago, some of my comrades were in trouble, even I have exam in the next week, I also went there to show my solidarity.

Today is my turn, I was in trouble and this time, people who I have helped and supported have come and support me.

What I can conclude is comradeship build upon mutual thrust and mutual respect. When any comrades are in troubles, we as their comrades need to show our solidarity to them.

Even today's weather is not good, yet I saw many comrades still waiting for us. They didn't want to move when it is raining cats and dogs. The best moment is when one of the comrades was denied his rights, we insisted that we will not tolerates any unfair treatment to him. All of us stand behind him no matter what is happening.

These people can choose to walk out from this and have a comfortable life. They can go shopping, having fine dining, watching movies or went for entertainment. Yet they choose to stand with us, which I am very moved. This movement is full of uphill tasks, the journey is full of thorn, but with all your solidarity and support will makes this journey meaningful.

Happy Labor Day.

Crossroad

2011-04-29T09:01:00.000-07:00

I'm going to graduate soon.
Coming to this stage of life,
I will have to make decision.
idealism versus reality,
it is a hard decision to make.

If I choose idealism,
all my dreams of owning big houses,
big cars, branded goods, vacation,
are shown the exit door.
Idealism can't satisfy my desire,
but idealism can bring change to society.

If I choose reality,
Yes, all the desire and wants can be fulfilled.
I can have a decent life,
the only things i hate is
segregate myself from society,
I only need to exercise my rights every 5 years.
Which I can only hope,
Change drop from the sky,
because others have worked for it.

Sigh... in this stage,
A crossroad between two,
which will determine my future.
I just hope that,
I will not regret after 20 years.

xoxo

FYP Presentation

2011-04-19T00:48:00.000-07:00

Final year project presentation. 24 hours before the presentation, I can see that many of my course mates put in their FB status that they are very nervous, counting down to few hours and so on. For me, I only managed to finish the slides one day before the presentation. It takes me 3 days to finish 29 slides, which I think is not productive. After finish my slides, I didn't give my supervisor to check and just use it for my presentation. Compared to other supervisor, who have mock presentation, going through the slides with their students etc. I understand that my supervisor is a busy man, he hardly have any time to meet me. So let it be since I know where is my capability.

On the day of presentation, I didn't memorize the slides at all. My plan is go inside the boardroom, read through the slides and finish. This is my initial plan. When I reached the presentation venue, to my surprise that there is many people who not yet finish present their project. The presentation has been delayed for 1 hour 30 minutes. I estimate that my presentation will start at 1.20, finish at 1.40pm, but the delay has screwed my plan. Going there and waiting for my turn, with my hungry stomach and my increased heartbeat, it really make me nervous. Luckily W bought some bread, consider that as my lunch. People go in and go out. My examiner, T has to examine 3 of us and I'm the last one in the list.

First people come out and she cried. I'm so shocked that she cry. Since she has the same supervisor with me, different topic yet the analysis of the result is the same. Few weeks before the submission of the report, she told me that her report is done. By the way, she is more hardworking compared to me, she done all the analysis in the middle of the semester, while I only finish nearly at the end of the semester. She told us that T said the analysis methods are too easy and inappropriate. She suggested to used uv methods (I have no idea at all) and so on. She come out with tears on her eyes. Pity her.

Second person go in. The second person is the most hardworking and most intelligent among our batch. Scoring first class for consecutive semester except one or two semester. She even memorized all her slides before presentation and keep repeating her speech. I admired her diligence and her efforts in academic. When I get mediocre result in the subjects, she can scored with flying colours (If you understand what I mean). If I can quantify her efforts, example if I spent 1000 calorie to do revision, she will spend 1M calorie to revise. I didn't notice her tears when I go in, she is cool in front of T. After my presentation, when I come out and only that I noticed she also cry, with tears in her eyes.

For me, I think that T treat me fine. Compared to the second person where she keep 'interrupt' her presentation, at least she allowed me to finish my slides. From introduction to conclusions. Of course, she did mention this and that, informed me that I am misleading and this and that. Few questions which I can't answer. But anyway, I am glad that I have survived boardroom drama and come out in one piece. Although I can't satisfy everybody expectation, yet I take pride of the efforts, the time spent and the works outcome. There is nothing to regret when I look back, cause I have done all the things within my means. I didn't come out with tears, I come out with glowing lights, with my pride and the feeling of a survivor in a terrible drama. It definitely will make me stronger in the future.

Then T come out and informed my course mate that you all are lucky for not having she as examiner. She said the 3 students all come out with tears (correction: except me). Thanks God that all the experience in the movement able to help me through. Compared to her, I have experienced people who truly harsh to me, people who keep spreading white terror and hope that you will give up. I can only say that experience help, in terms of physical and mental.

Is raining now and I wanna take a nap.

xoxo

Diary

2011-04-12T09:36:00.000-07:00

Life is a drama, at least for last week. I'm not sure what the hell is happening last week. When one thing goes wrong, the subsequent things also go wrong. This like bad things happen continuously.

My internet is down for last weekend. Worse, I have an assignment that need to summit on the next Tuesday and needs a lot literature review. Moreover, the content is full of biochemical stuff which needs a lot of technical information from journals. The assignment is almost similar to pharmacy assignment, which I don't know what I have written. But, what happen is when there is no internet at home, I traveled to nearest cafe to surf the net. I choose Cheras Mahkota due to the distance. When I arrived there around 1pm, the shop is closed for private function. My first word - F***. I went to so many Old Town and this is the first time Old Town is closed for private function. Why they don't want to do on another day but have to crash with my assignment deadline? out of so many branch, why they must choose Cheras Mahkota? Tell me why? Is this due to so called bad luck.

The next day I have English test (UPM-TOCIE). First time in my university and I am the first batch to take the test. The format is similar to MUET oral test. But I think this test is very irrelevant because it used to assess our proficiency on English. I'm not against the test, but I think the test didn't serve any purpose since we are in final years, if the English is not up to the par, what is the university want to do? Giving intense English class? If the university thinks that their graduates are not up to the standard, they should provide more English courses during university, assess the student from time to time. By the way, the English oral test is piece of cake. I think I done very well, given the experience in movement, the argument, the perspective and the discussion techniques. The examiner said is a very interesting discussion, of course she should see the way we discuss the issues. How to overcome negativity bought by internet? Candidate C said that government should filter the content of the internet, this is something which I am against it. I argue that the government should not filter the internet, but to educate and giving accurate information on the usage of internet. Filter the internet is so dictator, gone with the age where government knows what is good for the people, now the people knows what government is good for the country, people start to demand better and efficiency government.

Sunday go to police station to support students arrested at KL sentral. Surprisingly, is a reunion for me, the lawyer, the IO and the OCPD. We all meet 2 years before, when I step inside the police station, the IO ask why I am here. Of course, I'm showing my solidarity to them. I thought he has forgotten me, well he will not forget me since I'm his suspect for once. Hahaha...... Anyway, will meet with him in 2 weeks time.

Sarawak polls temperature is rising. My junior who is Sarawakian say Kuching is DAP stronghold and her parents will vote for BN. Aiyo~ why must vote for BN? I'm thinking as daughter and son, we should educate our parents since we are educated and full of knowledge. Try to recall what we have been, Teoh Beng Hock fall mysteriously. When we organize camp, we will ask contribution from SK assemblyman, guess who has help us. Are we going to let this case conclude at open verdict? The suspect run free? Where is the justice? When we are taking part in campus election, all the unfair rules, all the humiliations and dirty tricks from Aspirasi and HEP, are you satisfied with this? Do you want your brother, your future generation going through the same thing that you have experienced? Standing up for your rights and you will be silent by oppressor? Joining any peaceful assembly and tear gas and water cannon awaits you? You can put a stop to this, stop voting for your oppressor, vote against them and show them who is the real boss. One people will not change anything, try to ask your family members to change. Yes, just like Obama said, YES WE CAN!. CHANGE is the things. Malaysia need to change, and the change start from Sarawak! Do your part and let us contribute to better Malaysia.

Glee

2011-03-27T00:27:00.000-07:00

I took Glee Season 1 from my friend. At first, I thought Glee is just another teen drama like High School Musical. After watching a few episodes, I perception changed, Glee is not any other teen drama like Gossip Girl or High School Musical, there is certain lesson which all of us can learn from watching it. Even for me, there is a lot of challenges which we are facing or will be facing in future, watching Glee certainly help me to understand some of the things.

Glee is about a group of high school students who didn't fit in their social circle, they consists of people with different physical features and personality. White, Black, Asian, minority, punk, gay, disable, fat, blond, they are a group of unique people come together as one group, connected by music. Each has to accept who they are, running away from problem is never the solution. What stunned me the most is this video. Beautiful sung by Mercedes Jones.
- How many of you at this school feel fat?
- How many of you feel you're not worth very much?
- Or you're ugly, or you have too many pimples and not enough friends?

Well, she has something to say about it.

Watching Glee is an empowerment to the teenagers. It teaches us about equality, inclusion, feeling confidence and telling everyone it is ok to be exactly the person you are. When everyone is accepting our differences, we can reduce discrimination gradually.

Renaissance

2011-03-25T07:21:00.000-07:00

Since moving from Serdang to Cheras, there is a few things that I need to adapt. Initially there is 3 days of class in one week, now I only attend 2 days of class in one week. The incentive of going to a class has decrease dramatically, imagine I have to travel 1 hour to the class, if the class only one hour, then I better skip the class since my energy will be consumed in traveling.

The other good thing is now I can cook my lunch and dinner. At least I can choose what to eat and also save some money for my meal. If I am tired of cooking, just go out and have a meal, is that easy as that. At Serdang, I seldom eat vegetables for my meal, now I can cook any vegetables that I like, sort of starting to live healthy.

Today, I just went to Leisure Mall pasar malam. Compared to Seri Kembangan pasar malam, Leisure Mall is much better. I found that the things that they sell at Leisure Mall have more choices. One more thing is at Serdang, I only go pasar malam once per week. Now I can go twice a week. One of the pasar malam is known as the 'longest' pasar malam in Malaysia. At least this is something that I'm happy about.

I have tried wearing contact lens. At first the feeling is quite weird, after a few times, I get used to it. I felt the freedom when wearing contact lens and I'm starting to loving it. My friends told me that I look nerd when wearing contact lens, who care? At least I'm feeling in control.

Some updates of my life. Traveled to Malacca. Doing experiment for FYP.

View of Dataran Pahlawan from Menara Taming Sari.

Coconut Milkshake

Jonker street

Experiment setup

Wastewater before and after treatment.

Campus Election

2011-02-25T08:21:00.000-08:00

This is my forth years in university. I never felt exhausted before, especially after campus election. I must admit that the campus election for this year is the most 'happening' in my university life. I never see such big crowds gather at university for a cause. This year, I have experienced peaceful gathering by students that demanded the Deputy Vice-Chancellor to explain the disqualification of 33 candidates. After years of participated in campus election, at last I have the chance to experience the hot fever of campus election.

Because of the door incident, suddenly all the staffs, lecturers and students become aware of campus election. The disqualification of the candidates, the broken glass door and security personnel and students injured in the incident. All these become the highlight of media in this week.

Speaking of media, I thought the campus election fever is over. However, the real part is just begin. All the media keep an eye on this issue. According to our planning, I'm not suppose to be the spokesperson for the current campus election. I'm not sure what went wrong or how things turn out, I found that I'm in the news for three consecutive days, especially in Chinese press. First is the broken glass door incident, my name was quoted and highlighted. The second day is the report submitted to Deputy Higher Education Minister, the photo has my face and the third day is the police report lodged by Pro-M. It is very tired to answer all the phone calls by media. Have to repeat all the stories again and again. Informing something, clarifying something and explaining something, the cycle keeps continue for these few days. I just wish that all the things can be settled as quick as possible because for sure, I have a lot of explanation to my family and relatives.

Personally, I thanked media for highlighting this issue and their report is quite fair depends on the paper. Overall, I'm satisfy with the Chinese press coverage, the English press is fine and the Malay press keep pointing the finger to the students (They have their own agenda and Malay media is being controlled).

Hope the things can be settled as soon as possible.

p/s: 现在真的很需要人陪，做我的耳朵，分享我的烦恼。

3个爱

2011-01-20T23:28:00.000-08:00

每个人1生中会遇到3个人

第1个是你最爱的人
第2个是喜欢你的人
第3个是跟你常相厮守的人

而往往这3个人都不会是同1个人。。

因为你爱的人，他不爱你
而爱你的人，你却不爱他

至于跟你常相厮守的人
你和他的相遇，也只不过是时间造就而已。

Happy Moment

2011-01-09T08:22:00.000-08:00

Monday, windy.

Happy moment is my sweet memory. I'm not sure what really trigger my sweet memory in this few days, but going to Port Dickson is a happy moment.

I felt that going to PD with juniors really make me very old (age wise), although some seniors may older than me. Live and doing activity with juniors makes me recall back my junior years. All the juniors are born in 89, 90 which a difference of 2 or 3 years really make a lot of different. Looking at the bursting energy from the juniors really trigger my happy moment. I have a lot of fun with all of you and hope that in future, we can work, live and play together.

To my surprise, there is some juniors who voluntary offer to move in to my house. This is something which I didn't expect from a junior.

Here is something that I didn't have the opportunity to say during sharing session. I need to write down so that in future, when I refer back, I can recall all the memory that I have wrote.

For me, I didn't waste my 4 years in university. My values are shaped in my university years, even it just 4 years (which I consider very short), my values have become more progressive and there is some old-fashion values which I have buried down under. Through the activities that I have organized and participated, there is more than experience that I have gained. This is something that I didn't expect to gain when I enter university. When I enter university, I'm expecting that I will graduate with first class and work in the corporate world. Yet, though some unexpected event which have changed my life completely, I can announce that I gain more than what I have bargain. Speaking of my result, even my result didn't get first class, there is some thought and values which can last longer than paper qualification.

My future will not in the field of human rights and activism, yet I appreciate what I have learned in the field of human rights and activism. I salute to those who are struggling for the oppressed and the underprivileged. When I plan to advance my future after I have graduated, these values will follow me whenever I go. At least I will reject any form of bribery, to promote transparency and most important is respect human rights and empowering people around me, whether they are my superior, colleague etc. The seed of change looks tiny, but you will never know what you can impact on people life. A small courtesy can brighten people life, don't ever think that small contribution is nothing, when they accumulate, big changes can be observed.

This getting darker now. xoxo

So Close For A Crash!

2010-12-22T07:26:00.000-08:00

Wednesday. Rain.

Have you ever experience any accident before? What are you thinking just before the moment you crash? Today, I have experienced that, it is so close.

Driving on the main road and a car suddenly came out from the junction at Serdang Raya. Since the road is 2 lanes, I am driving at the right lane, I should able to move to left lane to avoid the car. However, my left side is a small lorry and this make me unable to move to left lane.

At the moment when I'm going to crash, my heart suddenly stop beating and I just hold my breath. My though is gone blank and only thinks that I gonna crash soon. Experience before crash is that I'm so blank at that moment.

Thanks God that I have successfully avoided the crash. It is a close call. To be exact, the gap between my car and the incoming car is like 1cm gap. I just thanks God that I have avoided the accident. Human is so tiny, when we are feeling difficulty beyond our control, we turn to God hoping that God will give us strength to continue. This is what I felt when I think that I almost crash and injure. I just leave it to destiny at that moment.

My leg become numb to step the clutch after the accident. My respiratory system have increased their capacity and I breath twice as fast as usual. What happen a moment before keep flashing on my mind.

Thanks God for His mercy. Another experience. This few days a lot of accidents have been reported on the newspapers. Some are serious just like the tourist bus. Human can only plan, but God decide our fate.

xoxo

Sweet & Sour

2010-12-09T08:32:00.000-08:00

Life is full of surprises and twist.

Sweet
Spending some precious moment with secondary school mates really memorizing. Recalling our young days and gossiping on people really exciting, especially gossip on those who didn't meet for many years. While the topic that mostly discuss : career, sex, marriage, money etc. Life in the mid-20 is going to be challenging, more responsibilities that we going to take.

Knowing that UPM won the overall champion in National Chemical Engineering Symposium (NACES 2010) is another great news. UPM is going great in this few years. Knowing that UPM won the first place in technical essay really shock. This is the third time UPM won the first place in NACES technical essay competition. I'm really proud to study chemical engineering in UPM. Have to congratulate my junior who continuing the excellence traditions. Also have to thanks to those seniors who have guided us before you all graduate.

Sour
Result is out. Again this time I didn't expect very much, just hope to maintain second class upper. What make me upset is my result is showing declining trend, which could jeopardizes my aims to score CGPA of 3.5. I have to work harder, but next semester also have S as my lecturer. I got 2 C+ in the previous 2 semesters because of him. If given a chance, I hope that I can choose other lecturer.

Finger crossed. xoxo

Recently just watched Sex and The City, I memorized that one of the quote: Women in their 20 comes to New York to look for 2 L - Label and Love. Rephase: Men in their 20 comes to Kuala Lumpur to look for 2 C - Cash and Career.

Married, What?

2010-12-06T00:20:00.000-08:00

This morning, when I opened my Facebook account, I am shocked that one of my primary school classmate get married. From his photos, I saw their marriage ceremony and many of my primary school mates attended his wedding. Actually there is nothing to be surprise, normal couple get married in their 20+, especially in my age. Moreover, recently there is another friend who engaged.

But what shock me is he get married in such a young age. (For me, I consider young based on my benchmark, it may not applicable to everyone. I'm sorry if you guys not agree with me, I'm a very conservative in certain issue) Imagine to get marry, you need to have at least a house to stay and a car to travel. However, given the current standard of living, to own a house in Klang Valley is getting challenging, the interest rate is so high and you may need to pay mortgage for many years (approximate 15 years and above depending on your ability to pay). After getting married, there is another challenge - the baby. Baby needs milk, pampers, care-taking etc. All these does not come cheap in this era. Thinking and figuring out all the money needed make today's newlywed couple life full of challenge.

In my memory, he is an intelligent student in my class. He is able to get 1 -3 place in every exam every year. Even for me, I also lost to him. He is a capable student, he has been our class monitor for many years and many teachers have praised him for his intelligence and hard working. His mathematics is brilliant, always scored 100 marks. He told me before he learned mental arithmetic and this helped him a lot in mathematics. In secondary school, he has joined scout and actively involved in the uniform organization.

I thought he will not wed so early, he is a talented person who can aimed for the sky. Although getting marry didn't stop someone to climb higher, this may result in more burden for the person to bear. Career, wife, family etc. In this aspect, I'm a very conservative person. Before a man get marry, at least he must have a home for shelter, a car to take him around and some cash to be spent. If you lack of any one aspect, then I think to postpone the marriage is a good suggestion. Chinese say 男人应该重视事业，尤其是年轻的男人. This may depends on individual value, although someone may not agree, but having a good foundation is better than nothing. At least a good foundation can withstand many unpredictable challenges that will come ahead.

Even though my value may be different from others, I still need to wish my friend happy wedding and both of you can live happily ever after. Finding a love one to spend the rest of the live is a noble act.

Beautiful & You Are Loved (Don't Give Up)

2010-11-25T07:52:00.000-08:00

I guess is weird to dedicate songs through blog compared to social network. However, I know that you read my blog and hope these will make you more comfortable.

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

清淡

2010-11-21T02:58:00.000-08:00

一年前的这个时候，还记得是准备收拾行李的时候，即将到国外去旅行。

但是这一年如此的清单，不但没有去旅行，而且在家里量地，做FYP，读课外书本，上网等等。
啊！如此清单的生活，就快要把我闷死了。

想起一些中学的猪朋狗友，几乎全部都开始工作了，只有可怜的我读四年的科系，还在象牙塔过生活。
还有大学的朋友，全都回了自己的家乡。
还好，还有活动的朋友留在KL这一带。

我才发现原来清淡的生活不适合我，就快要逼我发霉了。
我期望精彩的生活，不喜欢千篇一律的生活，毕竟这才是人马座的性格。

上网看那些在论坛分享游记的要不是去台湾就是去泰国或印尼。天下酱大，难道没有一些地点具有特色的吗？
还是大家都不敢冒险，走出自己认为的‘安全地带’？
看到某人去西藏的照片，需要做48小时的火车，到达拉萨。拍的照片令我十分欣赏。
原来旅行要找到知音人，这样才会更有意义。

还是不要想太多，现在还年轻，将来一定有机会的。
看回现在，还是期待明年五月的旅程。

Starfish

2010-11-20T09:20:00.000-08:00

Tonight I want to share a story that I heard. This is ordinary story but it is worth to share with other.

One big wave has washed many of the starfish to the shore.
Two buddies playing on the shore and saw that there is many starfish on the shore.
One of the them quickly pick up the starfish and put them back to the sea.
If not return on time, the starfish will suffer and die due to lack of oxygen.
The other said that there is too many starfish to return to sea, how long are you going to finish this?
He replied that as long as he can saved the starfish.
The other guy is shocked and asked who care about all the starfish?
Then he silent for a while. He said: This starfish care... this too... that too... those too...
He showed that after he returned the starfish, there is one life of the starfish saved.

No matter how small is the effort, as long as you are determined, your effort will be appreciated someday. Who know you can change someone life with little effort. Little effort bring big impact.

Bioethanol Plant Design Presentation

2010-11-16T02:27:00.000-08:00

There is something that you will regret in your life. Well today, I am facing that dilemma. It should be a presentation that I have prepared and pray hard that I will not been questioned by 'strict' lecturers. Guess what, today is my lucky day.

Being question by 3 lecturers during the presentation. The first lecturer R is very knowledgeable in her own field. In fact, I have admired her during my first year. She is good at guiding us to solve chemical engineering problems. I recall that she not only guide us to solve problem, indirectly she teaches us to think about the way to solve problem. There is the significant difference here, some lecturer will guide and facilitate us to some the problem and get the correct answer, while some lecturer will stimulate your thought and make you think for the methods to solve the problem. The answer obtained may not be absolutely correct, however the answer can be justified with reasonable and logical argument. Isn't that engineering student should strive for the method to solve the problem? Reality check revealed that there is always a standardized answer provided in the exam, once you are unable to answer 'correctly', you will loose your mark and in worst case scenario, you will fail the test. With such attitude, how are we especially engineering student going to progress?

Back to bioethanol presentation, being examined by her during my presentation is an honor yet I think I'm not up to the par that she expected. There is a question that I mess up miserably, it should be answered in a logical way yet things didn't turn out it should be. I just being blank at that time, unable to provide a logical answer for that and I have choose to answer in the random manner. God bless and she say that is ok and she is fine with it. But somewhere in my heart, I should be able to answer that question and provide a reasonable explanation. After I come out from the room, I start to think back the question and found that is not really hard to answer, it just don't know how to respond at that time.

I still remembered that when she is asking for the mass and energy balance, what type of simulation model that I used. I replied that I used the simple distillation column model to do the simulation and she is curious that instead of using simple model, I should used the REDFAC model to do the modeling. Then she talked about the equation used in the model and I'm shocked that she really know her stuff well, don't play-play with such lecturer. Even for me as engineering student also can't remember well the equation used in the model. I guess the moral of the story is you really need to know your stuff well and able to justify the reason behind the selection made.

The other two lecturers didn't ask a lot of question. One of them pointed out the cost can be calculated by using the factors derived from the bioethanol. I'm quite blur at that time and replied him that references that available to calculate the costing. He didn't keep asking but I'm quite interested in the method that he pointed out. Moreover, he is very experience in industry and there is some experience and knowledge that unable to get from the reference book.

To my surprise, the other lecturer T didn't asked a lot of question. Usually he is the lecturer that asked a lot of question that students unable to answer. He just asked me the introduction part only. At least I'm able to answer that question. I still remember that last time I have questioned him regarding the policy in UK and Malaysia. He said that in UK, the salary that he can earned per hour is very high compared to Malaysia. Then I pointed out that this is due to UK is a welfare state that have minimum wage act. But in Malaysia, we are developing country and we need to compete with other neighboring country that able to offer lower labor cost. Moreover, our economy and export driven economy, hence a minimum wage act will make our country unattractive to foreign direct investment. At that point, he sounds like disagree with me and he continue with other topic about the economy. There is some aspect of economy where I only able to partially agree with him. May be because I am exposed to the difference between capitalism economy and socialism economy, therefore some issue of economy I'm able to pointed out to my lecturer. I think from that time, he will 'blacklist' me for argue with him. Well at least he remember me who argue with him before.

As for today, there is a huge improvement that I'm able to made for the presentation. Any mistake made is a lesson for future. There is thing that not worth regret and plant design presentation is one of them. I wanna shout goodbye to plant design for now.

xoxo

Bioethanol Design Project

2010-10-28T10:17:00.000-07:00

Just some quick thought for this week.

This week is a hell for me. Having a bioethanol design project that need to summit on Thursday and the progress is less than 50 % complete when this week start. I have sacrificed my sleeping time to this design project. When they went to celebrate on Tuesday, my heart felt very outrage. Why people able to enjoy their last week of the semester with laugh and laid back style, while KKA students need to swift to fifth gear and have to burn midnight out? Whatever the reason is, is over for now except for the presentation part.

I don't care about the plant design result anymore. As long as the lecturer pass me, I'm more than satisfied. Is not easy to finish a report that contains 100+ pages per person. All the sleeping time sacrifice, mental breakdown, tension and stress, lack of appetite, all these cumulative effects really tears a person to the lowest point. Lets put a stop to them and say goodbye for now.

One more thing that I want to apologize especially to activity's friends. I know that there is some tasks that being delayed because of me. I am deeply regret for the things that I'm unable to accomplish this week. I have to complete my project first before I can concentrate on other things. I know that homework should not and never be an excuse for unable to complete task. Every people is busy with their things and daily routine and I really appreciate that you all help me going through my toughest semester. For your information, I never really work my assignment like this hell before. It is my toughest assignment of them all and I'm glad that you all able to consider my situation. Thanks and a big hug for you all.

Good night and xoxo.

功课

2010-10-23T07:44:00.000-07:00

十五分钟的发泄！

我真的很无奈!有些人可以常常把功课挂在嘴边，问他们能否出席活动，每次就把功课搬出来讲。我想问你们，难道我没有功课吗？我的系需要交两份不同的project，搞到就快半死了。但是功课是功课，运动是运动，两者都需兼顾，活动我还是可以出席。

也有人说，选择是在我们的手上。这个问题，我难道没有想过吗？我可以向前国内一了百了，什么都不需要烦，专心考好我的试，拿好我的1st class，毕竟我也是高材生。

今天听了某人向我诉苦，说了以后还留下眼泪。这些都是我们一起面对的问题，我明白你的心情，但是我无法安慰你，因为听你讲了我也很担忧。有时，搞组织是很费神，费力也很费钱。但是，往另一方面向，组织也令我成长不少，面对问题是有一班战友一起面对。

时间到了。只能往正面的方向想，不要往后看。一起加油吧！

《唐山大地震》

2010-10-22T06:46:00.000-07:00

I have to admit this, I'm not a sensitive person. Even when I watch an tragedy movie, I rarely cry.

However, after I watched 《唐山大地震》I drop my tears from the movie start. The scene is too touching. The mother would have to choose either to save the son or the daughter but the mother insist to save both. Since 手心手背都是肉, it is a decision that is very difficult to make. In the end, the mother choose son over daughter because reality is 重男亲女 in that era. My tear keep dropping during the whole scene.

Here is the trailer of the movie. I high recommend you to download and watch this movie.

Why?

2010-10-14T08:10:00.000-07:00

Things happen for a reason. This week is a terrible week because many relationships were tested. Some survived while some broke apart. It is not a good things to deal with especially in relationship. I'm not an expert that specialize in relationship, as a result I always get blamed for things that is not caused by me.I don't know what the hell happen on this week.

One text message and that's all, I have become the black sheep. Without any clue of what is happening and it all fall apart. If you doubt me that I'm not sincere in our friendship, that is nothing more that I can say. I choose not to explain because I think there is no point to explain, keep explaining will only make things complicated. You asked me to understand what type of personality are you, at least I have put some effort on that. I hope that only time will prove it.

But do you know what type of personality am I? Do you think for the sake of small gain, I will do things that will damage your reputation. Does it really matter that the perception of people on you? I really don't see any significance on that. If the victim are not angry on that, what rights do you feel to be angry? A thousand question marks on my head now.

I agreed that I am a good at pretending. In fact, in previous relationship, once broken is very hard for me to forgive. There is some things that I can tolerate but not to the extreme. As I learned from previous experience, relationship does not have right or wrong. It depends on how you define and appreciate it. The good thing is at least I know what do you think of me. Friendship tested. Merely pass only. Finish!

xoxo

小学生生活营后感

2010-10-12T00:22:00.000-07:00

刚办完小学生生活营，由于星期二考试，所以无法在星期日或星期一写部落格，只好考完试后才写。小学生生活营令我有点心情不平衡，种种的因素，还有面对一些棘手的问题时，有时真的不知所措。

还好，从宣传到营会，我还撑得下。从宣传开始讲起，当发现人数没有达到目标时，突然觉得整个人很纳闷。还记得那时跟系友吃早餐，刚打给学校问人数后，发现整个营会的人数没有达到目标，那天的早餐都没吃。系友都觉得很好奇，平时都不会忽略早餐的我，竟然那天的早餐都不吃，而且都没有讲多过十句话。他们问我什么事，听了我的故事后，他们都很鼓励我，而且有几个都办过活动的朋友明白我的心情，还一直替我打气。听了他们那一番话，心情觉得好多了，幸亏还有系友明白那半活动的心情，不只是课业上帮了我不少，至少在我面对活动上的压力，除了自己的战友外，系友的耳朵也可以借来听我诉苦。当然，我的战友（炜，丽，豪，阳，沁，薇，洁，妮还有很多列不完）也牺牲了不少，虽然你们不是宣传组的人，但是很感谢你们牺牲你们的午餐时间，陪我去小学晒日烈的太阳，流了不少汗水，浪费了不少口水，去说服父母亲让他们的孩子参与这个生活营。你们的付出，我会牢牢记在心，真心的感激你们。

在营会的前几天，电话几乎响个不停。每半个小时就有父母致电过来问交通，问活动性质，问膳食，问长问短，接到手都软了。星期五本来是要交detailed design的first draft，打算星期四晚上去系友家做，谁知人算不如天算，几乎那个晚上我的电话都响个不停。原本我电话的电池可以耐2天，就是那天只能耐一天。讲完一通又来一通，还有几个是call waiting。还好是三十八位营员，如果是八十位，那天我就不用睡了，可以成为专门接电话。我的detailed design只好随便交几个chapter，看我的supervisor如何给意见在打算吧！我只是想pass这一科，没有希望拿A的梦想，希望我的组员看了不会怪我。

营会的第一天，去跟Zulu庆祝生日，去吃日本自由餐。说到来，真的没有办法才需要离开营会。一些死党的生日，一定要给面子。错过了精彩的侦探戏剧。整体来说，看到小孩子天真无邪的样子，跟他们讲话完全没有心机。我曾经走过他们的路，随着年龄成长，知道的事也越多，做每件事都有目的，完全跟小孩子的世界是相反的。我也很希望我不要长大，继续成为小孩子，过着无忧无虑的生活（除了考试外）。大人的世界不简单，不是黑或白，还有灰色地带（还可以分深或浅）还有很多小孩子不知道的事。虽然我的童年不是很精彩，城市长大不是面对电脑就是书本，自己的童年是位很会读书的人，每次班上是考前十名，而且我曾经是个瞧不起成绩不好的朋友，没有跟他们做朋友（我知道自己很高傲，不过现在已经改了），现在相信平等原则，朋友不是靠成绩来交的，而是知心来交的。

小孩子，原来跟你们相处也可以有不同的人生观。飞吧，孩子！享受你们的童年，很高兴认识你们。

Communication

2010-08-23T01:02:00.000-07:00

This semester, I took an English class - Communication in Workplace. So far, I have went for 6 weeks of class and I think that what taught in the class is very basic, understandable and applicable to our daily life. If the class is understandable, then we should not have any problem in communication. Theoretically this is true because we all know the basic principles of communication, however when going to reality, communication is not an easy task, especially involved with different personality of people.

According to definition, communication is giving, receiving or exchanging information, opinions or ideas by writing, speech or visual means, so that the message communicated is completely understood by the recipient(s). The definition sounds easy to understand and no need further elaboration. Yet, effective communication is harder than what we think.

The basic steps for communication is conceive your message, follow by encode the message and select the appropriate channel. That is the role of sender. While for recipient, the recipient has to decode the message, interpret the message and give appropriate feedback. It sound easy to do it, don't you agree?

One of the things that I found practical is the barriers to communication. They are non-verbal signals, language, listening, pre-judgement, relationship, emotional responses and there is many more. The sad thing is the book didn't teach us how to solve this communication barrier, it really depends on our wisdom to solve this communication barrier. Experience can gain through daily life, experience will become our teacher in our daily life. However, does it worth to gain such experience when you are facing communication breakdown with other?

Until this point, I still didn't have a clear direction in handling communication barrier. It will always be a trial and error experiment, you rise from where you fall. This is where you gain your experience.

斗角力

2010-08-16T02:31:00.000-07:00

一场活动的成功和失败，主要因素是人为的。

办过了那么多的活动，在这一场的活动当中，角力斗得最刺激的一场。

可能人家已是跨国游说他国家面对的问题，而且说服了不少组织来支持他们的理念。

当小巫遇上大巫时，比渗透，比影响力真的怎样比都比不上。

斗角力，斗影响力，导致活动的目标本末倒置。

不过怎样都好，在这里也学了不少东西。

也很感谢忙着斗角力的人，看透了你的目的。

如果还是为民主人权奋斗的话，那么我是能说我们的办事方法是不一样的。

虽然我们的理念是一样，但不表示我赞同你的做法。

只能求佛-将来我们可以合作愉快。

Love The Way You Lie

2010-08-08T19:02:00.000-07:00

Somehow, I felt that I love this song so much even tough I dislike rap song.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

But that’s alright because I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie

Happy Convocation and Memory Lane

2010-08-07T02:37:00.000-07:00

Convocation is a special event in everyone life. It signified a milestone that a person has traveled and is preparing to enter to another phase. While attending friend's convocation is an exciting event because everybody can gather together and chat about university life and working experience. It should be an exciting event and all the hardwork in university have been translated on the transcript. But I have mixed feeling when attending my friend convocation.

Looking the person who entered university simultaneously with you but they managed to graduate earlier then you. It really make me rethink of my university life. From my opinion, three years of university life is considered short, however four years of university life is considered long. Looking the same batch wearing their 'jubah' really makes me jealous. I just wish that I can graduate with them together. I will lag behind my peer one year when entering the another phase of life.

When we gather together, they started to talk about careers, financial, investment etc. Some may even go further with their plan of getting married and having a family. Chatting with them really make me looks so 'naive'. What I can share with them is my academic, university life and society life. I didn't deny that is something good or bad, it will eventually become a gap between those in university and those people who start working. Yet, there is some experience that they shared with me when they are working. It will make you appreciate your university life even closer than you think. I just hope that I can finish my final year with the way I want, four years of university life really make me matured and even prepared me more when facing with my future.

I still can remembered that when we finish Form 5, what talk about where to further our study. Then Form 6 become our choice. Some have chosen private universities as their choice. After we have finished Form 6, then we talk about which universities and courses that we suit the most. Then we have received offer letter from our respective university and continue our study for 3 years. During the 3 years, we shared the moment that we spent together at the university, our academic performance and how 'geng' we are getting better result with little effort. Then we planned a few trip and traveled together. Going from island to highland to Thailand. And we only wish that we are able to graduate with second class upper. After graduation, money, career, family etc will be our future topic.

Out of today conversation, the quote of the day is: Dare to try when you are young. This quote came from Jarrett. I agreed with him that our resources and strength are our youthfulness. We need to have dreams and we have to be bold enough to achieve our dreams. We may fall along the way, yet youthfulness will be our cure. When we grow older, we will be afraid to take risk and this is make us to be more conservative.

Actually I need to wait for another year for my graduation. Just hope that you all remember my convocation and sincerely hope that you all can attend even you all are very busy. Currently, I wish that all of you happy convocation and bright future awaits you all.

华教与我

2010-07-14T08:09:00.000-07:00

本人是受过十一年的华语教育，但是我从来都不珍惜学华语的机会，甚至觉得学英语还比华语重要。记得有一次，我问我的父母亲，如果再有机会给你选择，你会送我去读华校，国民型学校还是英校（假设还有的话），妈妈毫不犹豫的回答会送我去华校，她的答案令我惊讶，因为身受英校教育的她，应该很支持孩子受英文教育。但是妈妈的答案很令我不满，因为我每次怪我的父母亲送我去华校导致我的英文很烂，在小学时学华语很幸苦，因为家里的人都不会华语，每次遇到问题时就要问保姆，当时学到有要放弃的心态。我从来都不珍惜学华语的机会，觉得华语每次拖累了我的成绩，考了大大小小的试，我的华语从来没有拿过A，最好也只是B吧了。每次拿到如此的成绩，要放弃华语的念头都在我脑海里浮过。我在form 6时很高兴因为华语不再是我的负担了。

就是没想到，在大学最后一年竟然给我遇到莫泰熙先生，莫先生以讲故事的方式来解释华教份子的奋斗，同时他也让我了解今天我们有机会学华语不是理所当然的，更不是从天跌下来的，而是通过我们的祖先，华教份子，学生们一起捍卫我们的母语教育。站在最前线的华教份子，他们受到各种各样的打压，最严重的是在茅草行动时以内安法令来扣留他们。他们在牢狱里受到虐待，软性打压，如果是普通人早已投降了。但是华教份子那不屈不挠的精神，从他们身上可以看出他们对华教是那么热心，也可以看出华教领袖的特质。政府对华校从来都没有一视同仁，单单从学校的数量就看得出了，其他的如拨款，缺教师等等的问题加上来是个超复杂的问题。但是，最令我反感的是那些政党（马华，民政）说是捍卫华社的利益，到底你们在华校课题上贡献了什么？难道在内阁里‘妥协’到多一点的拨款就可以满足华社了，那么你们真的是脱离华社很远了。难道争取在政策上的平等是比登天难吗？华社抛弃你们，唯有怪的就是你们自己的无能了。其实，莫先生说得对，马来西亚的教育政策都被政治化，种族化，都是被那些政治家搞烂了。从以前的政策（Penyata Razak，Laporan Rahman Talib， Akta Pendidikan等等）目的都是走向单元化的教育制度，和现在提倡的多元化教育制度是有矛盾的。宏远学校，英化数理，白小事件，还有很多很多数不完的事件。

我也领悟到一点，母语是一个种族的根，有机会受到母语教育是我的荣幸，将来我会好好的珍惜。我也要向我的父母亲道歉，感谢你们给我机会学华语，我会永远珍惜学习华语的重要性以及吸取华教的经验。

10 Questions to Ask Yourself Before Giving Up on Your Dream

2010-07-01T09:34:00.000-07:00

10 Questions to Ask Yourself Before Giving Up on Your Dream

Committed to Good Governance?

2010-06-28T08:23:00.001-07:00

Somehow and accidentally, I have witness a corruption practice among enforcement officers. I thought that after PR took over Selangor, they are committed to good governance. However, my assumption was wrong after witness today incident. I heard that the corruption has decrease after the 308 political tsunami but it still happen. I wonder until when our country will free from corruption?

I guess there is some leaders who are committed to good governance but the hierarchy of government if from top to bottom, you can't assure that the people at the bottom of hierarchy especially the civil servants are committed to good governance. From my observation, it is important for the ordinary people to play a proactive role in good governance, this is why we really need local council election. We can't always let politicians to deal with our lives, politicians will not look after our welfare, they only care for the number of votes that they can get in the election.

Business community are very prone to corruption, especially when dealing with enforcement officers. After some hearsay from my colleague, actually the owner of the premises has done something that is against the law. The enforcement officers have the authority to fine the shop owner, but it has become a norm for the shop owner to give some bride to the enforcement officers. My colleagues thinks that is there is nothing wrong with it and actually it help to avoid fine. My boss even worse, when the officers come, they straight away say wanna meet my boss. My boss inform my colleague and do what should be done. Personally, I can't accept such corruption practice, both parties have committed an offence and yet both think that their actions are a symbiosis action which benefited both parties.

On one side, I'm only a trainee at the company, sometime it is better to be blind and deaf since I don't have any significant role to voice out my opinion. My grade will be on the chopping board if my boss found out. On the other hand, I can't accept such corruption practice and I have the responsibility to report such cases. I'm committed to good governance yet this incident happen on the people around me. Or at least I can advise my boss stop doing this, but will my boss listen?

The path that is less taken...

2010-06-25T07:25:00.000-07:00

Since this few days, I have been reading journals about people travelling to other countries. There journals are full of beautiful photos and detailed description. Since the language that they used are mandarin, many of the journal describe their journey to Taiwan, China, Hong Kong and a few are Thailand.

Out of so many journals that describe their journey, one of the journal has caught my attention. The writer traveled from Kuala Lumpur to London by bus (mostly, only one or two trips are by plane). I am so impressed with the writer's determination and courage. Reading his journal was fun and by looking at the photos that he posted, I have an overview of backpack across the globe. It is not an easy journey, especially when you are facing language barrier, diseases, customs, financial and many other limitations along your journey. Many of the backpackers will give up half way and buy ticket to return to your country. I must salute the writer for his adventurous instinct and guts. Not many people are willing to give up their comfort zone just to travel and experience different places and culture. Those with strong will and determination will took up the challenge and be different from other people.

Bon voyage for those who will take up the challenge. I hope that one day I can follow the footstep of the writer. The path that is less taken...

魔鬼与天使

2010-06-23T06:16:00.000-07:00

倒数下来，我的实习将近结束了。今天已是第九个星期了，还有一个星期就结束了。自己的心里还是很挣扎，一边告诉我将回去大学生活，重获自由，另一半有不舍得公司里的人。

心里的魔鬼告诉我，以后不需要早上八点半上班，下午五点半下班。这种生活已机械化了，在规定的地点及规定的时间做规定的东西。与大学生活相比，自己喜欢去上课就去，不喜欢的话就一封讯息叫人帮我签，这种你帮我，我帮你的习惯是从第三年学坏的，看到自己堕落也没办法。还有，最后一年了，成绩都已定大局了，也无需要拼命去读了，只需要保持到3.5的水平就满意了。在加上自己拥有交通了，以后的生活相信是充满色彩的。得空就跟coursemate拼血，做一些花钱的事情，要不然就喝茶吹吹水。再想下去，真的是很堕落。这可能是三年的大学生活，学业和活动必须同时进行，要兼顾两者，缺少其中一者都不行，所以很少给自己一个机会堕落。但是，自从实习后，我可以想象自己将来的生活是如此规律的，还是趁年轻就学时做一些年轻人做的事。如果现在不做，恐怕以后就来不及了。

天使在我耳边悄悄的跟我说，自己已大了，拥有更多的自由，就要更有责任感了。自己要为身边的人着想，为大局着想，不要为了一时的贪玩而毁了一切。天使知道我是个贪新鲜感的人，每天都会去幻想，想一些新玩意来玩，玩厌了就抛弃。同时天使也明白我是个不喜欢被约束的人，如果设下种种局限，反弹就会更大，所以不管我有什么坏念头，天使都会时时刻刻提醒我。虽然忠言逆耳，但是我还是个可以用逻辑和理性去思考的人，很感谢天使的叮咛。

写到这里，待会儿我就要出去了，做一些堕落自己的事。必须给自己一些空间，堕落后又从新努力，那样才会有进步。:P

xoxo

Indulge

2010-06-21T08:22:00.000-07:00

It great that once in a blue moon that you gonna indulge yourself. All of sudden, I went to Mines just to treat myself a better meal and catch a movie. I think it has been a long time since I watch the last movie.

Mines don't have a lot of variety of food selection. Most of the restaurants I have tried before, so there is nothing new. Feeling disappointed, I have decided to walk for a few round. The shop that keep appear in front of me such as McD, KFC, Big Apple, Dunkin, Starbucks, Sushi King etc. All these are very common in Klang Valley's shopping center. However, in the end, I notice that there is one shop that look very familiar - Popeye. Popeye serves chicken and fish dishes based on American tradition. The last time I tried Popeye is at Singapore Changi Airport, this time triy back and feel that the test is not as good as first time.

I'm not sure is it my feeling or just some psychology effect, for the same restaurant chains, the food at oversea test better than Malaysia. For example, last time I tried Subway in Singapore, it feel very delicious and returning from Singapore, I tried to find Subway at Malaysia and I have managed to locate it at KL Sentral. However, the Subway at KL has disappointed me, worse even Subway at Bangkok taste better than KL. Tell me why is the Subway at KL taste terrible?

For whatever reason, my whole objective for today is just to indulge myself. It feel great when you can treat yourself to a better meal. One more thing is I guess that having own transportation really make my journey convenient. You can go wherever you want.

xoxo

大学生活分享

2010-06-17T17:42:00.000-07:00

在我还没进入大学前，我可说是个很典型的学生。在成绩上可以令我父母亲骄傲，可是却完全忽略了课外活动。在我那年的入学制度就开始计算课外活动的分数，所以在中学也只是为了取分而参与了课外活动。当时的我对课外活动觉得很麻烦，纯粹为了积分而参与，一点意义也没有。不过这些已经是陈年往事了，如果现在问关于我的大学生活是怎样过，我的回复是忙与活动，不过我过的很充实。

在我进入大学后，我很荣幸的认识了一位学长。当时他问我为什么进大学。我给他的答案很简单，那是因为我要取得大学文凭，在将来可以找到更好的工作，相信这答案是很多同学的心声。不过他又反问回我一句，每一年从大学毕业的学生有很多，根据太阳报的一份报导，在国立大专毕业生中，有高达70%是失业的。我听了这个数据后觉得有点惊奇，当时就开始想我到底怎样成为那30%的毕业生。于是我就做出了一个决定，我打算豁出去，打算过个不同的大学生活，于是就积极的参与很多活动来提升我自己。

在大学里，我比较积极参与博大前进阵线（前进）。参与前进当儿，让我接触了很多社会课题，也让我更深一层的去了解社会。除了平时开会，办讲座和讨论会，印象令我最深刻的是前进举办的考察团，那时的考察对象是住在Putrajaya的原住民。那时我觉得很好奇，因为我是在城市里长大的，所以没有机会接触过原住民。在华丽的Putrajaya背后有另一个故事，当年的Putrajaya被发展时，有很多原住民被逼搬迁。原本已在这里居住几代的原住民，因为为了发展而被逼搬迁，而且他们没有获得任何赔偿，听了他们的故事都为他们可怜。这只是个其中一个例子，相信还有很多这样类似的例子。大学的第一年，我就参与了学运所举办的实习计划。通过这个实习计划，我有机会接触了很多人权组织。参与的当时也让我了解人权是普世价值观，它的存在是不分性别，种族和宗教。这个实习计划让我见识了很多东西，增广了我的视野。我曾经接触变性人，缅甸难民和市区开拓者。当中可以了解和体会到他们面对执法单位所故意制造的麻烦，不过我在他们身上也学会了一件事，那就是我们应该知道和了解我们自己的权利，如果面对问题时，至少我们不再是被剥削的一群。

在大学生活过得很忙碌，参与了前进的活动，但是成绩不比系友逊色。在我忙活动时，我所拥有的空闲时间是很宝贵的，所以每当拥有空闲的时间都会很努力的去温习功课。我在大学里过得生活和身边大部分的朋友是与众不同的，他们如果不是血拼就是躲在房间里追看连续剧或上面子书，不然就打算去哪里赚钱。在短短的三四年大学生活，最重要是勇于尝试不同的活动，把自己的大学生活搞得多姿多彩，因为我们只有一次的大学生活，如果将来我们毕业了，至少我们看回去时是有很多美好的回忆。

参与活动的当儿，给了我很多思想上的冲击，这些问题在我中学是从来没有想过。为什么在社会的问题，身为大专生的我们，至少可以以我们的能力来回馈这个社会。其实大专生也是社会的一份子，而且是属于比较幸运的一群，因为我们都可以继续读我们的书，而且我们的学费都是比私立大专便宜很多倍，那是因为我们的学费都是由政府补助。政府的钱也是由纳税人给的，所谓的纳税人指的是包括了我们的父母亲，亲戚，朋友和社会人士。所以身为大专生不应该在象牙塔过自己的生活而已，而是以我们获得的知识和能力回馈社会，所谓：取之社会，用之社会，所以我们应该尽我们的一份力来贡献社会。

Food Poisoning, and it is suffering!

2010-06-16T08:33:00.000-07:00

On Monday dawn, the time around 3.30pm, I wake up and heading straight to the toilet. Just before I reach the toilet bowl, my stomach feels like gonna erupt and my throat feels like going to burn, all of sudden, I have vomited all my dinner to the toilet bowl. It feel so suffering having to vomit at night and I have been in the toilet for 30 minutes. The vomit keep coming but I keep convince myself that everything is fine. But in the end I have to give up and put my finger in the throat to stimulate my stomach and throat. All I can feel is the food of my dinner but all is in semi-liquid solid form. I felt very difficult and suffering and I almost drop my tears. After finish vomiting, I head back to bed and start to worry that whether I will vomit during my sleep. Sitting on my bed and I start looking for oil to be rubbed to my stomach, at first I wanna ask my roommate to borrow me, but kind of feeling guilty to wake him up in the midnight, therefore I have to tahan for the whole night.

I woke up at Tuesday morning and felt dizzy, yet I have to go working thinking that I am fine after resting for the whole night. But it turned out wrong and around 10am, I informed my supervisor that I need to take medical leave because I am not feeling well. Then I heading straight to PKU at UPM to consult doctor. To my surprise, the doctor recommended me to take an injection. At first, I doubt whether I am going for that injection because I am afraid of injection. The doctor replied that it all depends on you, if you take the injection, you will recover faster. Tablets can be taken but the effect will slow. Then, looking at the recovery rate, I have decided to take the injection so that I can recover faster. Going to the treatment room sounds scary, in fact when I am waiting for my number to be called, I felt that may be I should take tablets rather than injection. Waiting for 5 minutes and they call my number, I heading to the treatment room and hope that I can finish all of this as soon as possible. The injection only take few minutes and I'm done. It has been a long time since I took any injection from doctor, hopefully I will not need it in future.

Doctor asked me whether I eat outside food the day before. I replied that I ate outside food everyday. I guess that I am experiencing food poisoning. What worse is that restaurant that I eat has record of hygienic problem. The restaurant has been closed for several times due to complaints from consumers regarding the hygienic problem. I can only blame it on myself for eating at there. Hence, I will stop eating there for a period of time until my phobia gone. Food poisoning is a bad experience for me and since that experience, I have started to eat my meal with more cautious.

Food poisoning is very serious case. If minor then you will experience vomit and diarrhea, if it is a major case, you may need to stay at hospital. Then for today dinner, I choose to eat McD because I thrust the hygienic level at McD is better. Hopefully I will recover soon. While enjoying McD, I am watch twillight on my computer. Oh my god, I just wish that I have a vampire friends, they are so cool. The ladies are hot and the men are handsome. Just wish that I am one of them and the food poisoning can't harm me. Just kidding!

xoxo

无奈

2010-06-09T04:07:00.000-07:00

最近这几天都觉得很无奈，那种给人讲后的心情不知要藏去哪里，只能把它留在心里，默默的让时间消化。

有些事不知为什么是我八卦还是多事，就随口讲了一句，结果就被抓住当替死鬼。唉，所谓病从口入，祸从口出，现在才真实体验到这句话。虽然我自己也是刚开始驾车不久，也遇过两次车祸，每次跟家人说时，家人劝我以后要小心。记得第二次车祸时，是在我左边的车要转U-turn,刚好我在右边的lane，结果就被他撞了一轮，那时的我很生气，心里在骂他会不会驾车，凡是有读law的都知道转右时要靠最右边的lane，他从左边转到右边，分明就是他错。但是，车祸都发生了，我打电话回去问我家人，他们很关心的问我情况如何，有没有受伤，同时也劝我以后要更小心。驾车的人都从来不会想发生车祸，只是有时只能怪天意，要来的始终都会来，只是看我们如何去面对而已。我也是随口讲而已，得罪你不是有意的，讲风凉话更从来不是我的作风。

被我同事嘲笑，我顿时的心情感觉很无奈。一个很简单的问题，如果某个政党给你一笔巨款，你会不会归他党。我给的答案是很简单，我是不会接受的他们的钱，也不会违反我个人的原则。同事们讲我很傻，就单单靠那笔钱，你就以后不用做工了，而且可以活一世了。但是我始终还是不会接受的，因为如果我接受的话，那我和那些贪官有何差别？你们可以笑我傻，可以讲我无知，说我看事物的眼观很渺小，但是我觉得你们还比我无知。每天说政府贪污，滥用人民的钱，你接受了他们的钱，难道你对得起其他人民吗？你说人是自私的，但是不是全部人都是自私的，你们因为小利益而放弃大改革，这改革不是为了你和我，而是我们的后代的福利，这难道不是我们所希望的改革，单靠希望是没有用的，所有的改变是从我们自己开始。

只能套前辈的话：我没有失败，即使我是少数，我是个胜利者，一切和腐朽抗争的过程，只要不动摇你那纯正的信念，都是胜利的过程。你不能理解我的想法，因为你想的程度不比我好，虽然你的年龄比我老。

无奈的心情，只能被时间消化。

Journey

2010-06-01T06:00:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time I didn't write blog due to my busy schedule. During this period, many things have changed and I view this as part of the journey in my life.

First of all, I have managed to master my manual driving skills (although is not perfect, at least my engine wouldn't die half way). It is not a big deal actually, but for a person who don't know to drive a manual car, this can be considered as an achievement. The joy of success is not easy, in fact, I have twice accidents in my journey. It is not that terrible but my front bumper is damaged from both accidents. The first time due to incompetency in my driving skills. Just a few days drive manual and I accidently damaged my house gate. I'm glad that my parents are so forgiving for my incompetency. Thanks for understanding. The second accident is a minor accident. There is two lanes available and I drive on the right lane. Initially, the car in front me is driving in right lane and he turned to the left lane. All of sudden, he turned to right because he want to make a U turn. I stopped my car and ask him why he turn from from the left lane. He said he has give signal indicating he want to turn. I'm so angry that don't you know that you must turn according to your lane. That is the lousy driver that I meet. He pissed me off. Luckily my bumper experience minor damage. I have to remind myself, drive slowly and safely. Be safe than sorry.

The next incident is something that I can't forgive that person. Why it must end like this? Well, I have make a conclusion that in future, if you ever meet irresponsible people, just tell them to back off and get lost! You only make life miserable for others. I can accept that you exercising your rights but with every rights come with responsibility. As a person that has exposed to human rights education, surely every lesson learned can be applied in life because human rights are universal values. I'm not sure what happen to your universal values and you turned to be irresponsible people. What done is done and I will never regret for my judgement and decision. It is over now and we are different people living in different world. If you think I'm harsh, just recall back how you make others miserable. Your friends, ex, seniors, juniors and the list go on. I can only wish that both of you can live happily ever after just like Cinderella.

All these are journey that I'm going through now. I believe that a hard journey will make a better people. No matter how miserable people done to you, you gonna believe in yourself and there is always light at the end of tunnel. Thanks for screwing up my life and because of you, I'm now an independent and with stronger determination.

人马座（蛮准的～）

2010-05-30T07:32:00.000-07:00

樂觀與憂愁：射手座人的內心不是外表看上去那麼樂觀的，因為喜歡看的遠，容易擔憂的事情也就多，在他們的字典裡，即使現在好，也不一定代表未來好，有時候很多人覺得很好的一個工作或一個伴侶，他們很輕易的就會放棄掉，可能只是因為一個毫不起眼的小原因。所以，這樣的外在表現，就讓人們覺得他們不喜歡被某件事情或某個人束縛住，追求自由的，沒有壓力的感覺。

現實：常說射手座是追求夢想的人，但往往忽略了他們現實的一面，算計起來不會比處女座差哦，只是更高明更隱藏罷了。射手座人的夢想是必須建立在現實的基礎上的，一般他們很少談及自己的夢想，而是實際的去做一些向夢想靠攏的事情。如果可以借巧力完成的事情，決不會多花一點工夫。所以有時候射手座也容易給人耍小聰明的感覺。可是，不得不承認他們完成的還滿不錯。也許終其一生，他們都在考慮怎麼巧妙的做一些事情，花最少的精力去達到最好的效果。所以，很多射手座看上去讓人們會覺得很懶，但是其實他們的大腦可沒有停下過思考現實的事情。

拒絕低俗：幾乎所有的射手座內心都是驕傲的，其程度絕不亞於獅子座。只不過他們不會顯現在臉上，外在的表現總是隨和的，恰當的。可是內在有著極強的自尊心，敏感也情緒化。因為射手座人心中是驕傲的，所以他們拒絕低俗，不喜歡任何俗氣的、粗魯的事或人。如果可以，他們希望一切有關的事物，都是優雅的、高尚的，值得品味的。而真正能讓他們覺得值得交朋友或談戀愛的人是很少的，雖然表面上他們是很隨和的。

多情：很多人說射手座多情，尤其是男性。其實在射手座人的心目中，對於愛情確實有理想化的傾向，和他們談戀愛，是一件高難度的事情。他們非常討厭俗氣的人，所以你不能很物質或喜歡談錢，但是他們又很現實，所以你不能一文不名，各方面也必須有一定的實力。物質與精神，你必須平衡的剛剛好，才讓他們覺得你值得去愛。或者，你有足夠的神秘感，可以讓他們不知道你的缺點在哪裡，而盲目的愛你。一般，當然是沒有完美無缺的人的，所以，可能像金牛座這樣永遠會讓射手感覺捉摸不透的悶悶的人，會非常吸引他們；或者象雙子那樣，足夠機智，懂得察言觀色，捕捉他們的情緒，才會讓他們感覺到愛情的甜蜜。一般射手的感情模式是，第一階段，你們還不熟悉，他（她）愛上了你，非常熱情。第二階段，你們逐漸熟悉，而他（她）開始龜毛，整天挑剔你的毛病，無論是背地裡還是當面。如果你有幸通過他（她）的挑剔過程，基本挑剔出的毛病為零或者你把缺點保密的非常好；那麼進入第三階段，他們就又是忠誠和熱情的愛人了。但是基本能通過第二階段的人非常少，所以有了射手多情一說。其實射手對戀人的挑剔，是源於對愛情的挑剔，對喪失自由感的恐懼。

射手座人的人生，往往是幸運的，因為他們是聰慧的、明朗的、通透的。與眾不同，也許是他們終生追求的夢想，希望每一個射手人，可以找到他們的夢想！

人人都說射手座是感情的騙子，對愛情不尊重，只追求片刻的快感，是花心與沖滿慾望的象徵。朋友們…你們瞭解射手座最真實的一面嗎？

射手座是大孩子，天真與善良，遇到愛情時，可能讓人感覺不認真，付出的比誰都少。可是，知道嗎？射手座很想愛，卻也很怕愛！剛開始他們只是慢慢的付出，謹慎的愛，好怕自己會受傷。可是在一句一句的愛，一天一天的相處下，射手座把帶刺的防備丟掉，開始不顧一切的去愛他們所愛的人，在別人眼中，只是射手座為了達到某種目的而作的行動。可射手座不介意，他會在自己幸福的想像中陶醉，希望對方能感受自己的愛，想對方覺得與自己一齊是幸福的。

在射手座愛上了一個人，他會把自己放到最後。有苦自己承擔，可能會因為吵了一場小架而不開心，卻也是最快認錯，無論誰的錯，他們都會包容，知道嗎？射手座會因為深愛一個人而原諒他的背叛，會因為你的一句話付出很多。他們愛玩，在玩的同時，也希望把那一份好心情帶給你，射手座是樂觀的。

人們總覺得射手座的世界很快樂，可是呢？射手座難過時沒有人知道，他不想讓別人可憐自己，射手座不堅強，可是很善良。在你難過時哄你開心，讓你有依靠，分手後，他會哭者去想屬於你們倆幸福的回憶，也不想愛的人因為同情而勉強和他一齊。他比誰都希望自己愛的人快樂幸福，卻常常忽略了自己，全身都是傷也笑著告訴你，我很好不用擔心。

在所有人看到他的笑容以為他沒事，卻不知道失戀對射手座有多大傷害，華麗的外表下有一顆脆弱的需要別人瞭解和安慰的心。知道嘛？你的一點關心，心思細膩的射手座會記得你對他的好，把自己的愛毫無保留的送給你，射手座是不被瞭解的，可他們不會怨誰。他們會傻傻的認為，讓我承擔吧，別讓別人也受到傷害。所以，不要讓快樂的射手座痛苦，別讓他們最有魅力的笑容成為掩飾痛苦的偽裝，認真愛射手座。你會知道射手座的愛，是充滿淚水的…

You help me, I help you

2010-05-17T05:23:00.000-07:00

Disgusting statement from Najib.

This is the government that cares for the people, this is the government that will fight for the people.

This is also a government that use the rakyat's money to threaten rakyat.

You help me, I help you?

Sorry, I will never help you. NEVER!

明白 . 寂寞

2010-05-16T04:37:00.000-07:00

一个人的心是孤单的，
因为心中没有一个人，
两个人的心是寂寞的。
因为心中都有个人，
而那个人却不在身边...
一个人或许会很孤单，
但两个人何尝不是更寂寞呢？

有你在身边，
但你并没有真正关心我，
有你的陪伴，
但两个人沉默了一整晚，
形同陌生人...
是你不爱我了吗？
还是我们的爱情败给了时间呢？
爱一个人不是应该有说不完的话吗？
为什么你那么安静呢？
为什么我的千言万语在你面前，
却吐不出一个字呢？

渐渐的觉得，
你不再是我以前认识的你了，
相处越久，越觉得我不够了解你，
是你变了，还是我变了呢？
是爱情变了，还是我们变了呢？
那样的甜蜜已不复存在，
剩下的只是两颗空荡荡的心，
是时候该结束了吗？

爱你的心一直存在，只是你还在不在...
如果两个人那么伤，我宁愿回到一个人生活，
好不甘心，但又不舍得...
爱上你就像爱上了寂寞，
而我，
终于也明白寂寞的滋味了...

两个人相处久了以后，总会出现这样的问题...
不是不爱了，
只是不知道如何爱下去...
两个人相处，除了互爱，
或许还需要那么一丁点的新鲜感....

爱情，经不起时间的考验...

爱情，经不起两个不会相处的人...

By 慕康

出处 : www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=113259265365477

Travel? Next Destination...

2010-05-14T20:03:00.000-07:00

In the next few days, AirAsia is going to have big promotion. I am very eager to find out the deal that available but I guess is zero-fare promotion. Since the air fare is relatively low, I wonder where am I going for my next trip.

There is a few suggestions that I am considering. The first option is going to beach. Destination such as Krabi, Phuket, Bali will be within my consideration. I want to feel the heat from the sun, swimming in the blue ocean and enjoying the best nature can provide. The feeling is so calm and free from the stress in the city. I can also consider the local destination since destination such as Perhentian, Redang and Tioman is famous for their beauty.

I also consider to travel to historical place. Last time traveled to Chiang Mai is so amazing, the city's old charm is locked in my heart. Some of the options available is Seam Reap (Angkor Wat), India, Nepal, Dhaka and Colombo. I also would like to experience life in South Asia where a lot of people is living under poverty. I am blessed to be born in Malaysia.

Of course, traveling is better to be accompanied by good friends. But in reality, after graduating from university, people are looking for jobs and start working. The time to enjoy and experience new things will be reduced by heavy workload. What to do, this is the reality. Enjoy my final year in university. Travel when I'm young an gaining new experience is my hobby.

叶子

2010-05-07T21:38:00.000-07:00

我一个人吃饭旅行
到处走走停停
也一个人看书写信
自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里
就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你

坚持下去，相信未来

2010-05-04T03:41:00.000-07:00

在网上跟了一位泰国朋友谈了泰国的政治情况后，

就连他思想比较进步的年轻人都觉得这两方的斗争是无法避免的。

两方面对于和平对话的承若几乎是零，

所以，他对这件事已经半死心了。

然而，身为一名战友，

在自己战友最低落时，最缺乏希望时，

鼓励他们是至少我们可以办的。

尤其是在最关键时刻，

眼睁睁的看自己战友被政府审讯，

自己一定要对他们有信心，

也对自己有信心，

在外面声援他们。

我们要求的改变不是从天跌下来，

而是通过不断的争取和斗争所换回来的。

当我们失去信心和失望时，

那改变就会随着我们的希望一起死去。

当自己的战友面临困难时，

往往团结就是力量，

因为团结起来的潜力是无限的。

一起加油，

坚持下去，

相信改变，

未来会更灿烂。

Secret

2010-05-03T08:46:00.000-07:00

When your besties know your secret, it's a relief, not a burden anymore.

Secret is a piece of information that is only known by one person or a few people and should not be told to others. The intention of me writing this post is not to expose any secret, but to share the feeling of knowing someone secret. Knowing someone secret is never an easy job, especially secret that you wish that it is better to lie to you for the whole life.

Someone told me their secret and the way to handle the news is very important. I think if you think that we are really your besties, no matter how serious the impact to everyone, you should share with us. Especially through what we have gone through, we have walked the journey together as one without leaving anyone behind. I understand that sharing a secret must take into many considerations, our acceptance and reaction towards your secret. It will become a burden for you trying to leave some clue for us to guess, trying hard to be normal and assume that there is nothing to hide behind.

As you said earlier, when you revealed your secret you will feel relief. For me, as long as the secret are not against my principle that I believe, I think I can accept the secret quite well. If making a pre-assumption is a must for you before telling us your secret, that really hurts my heart. I sincerely hope that in future if you have any secret that you want to share with us, please share it without taking much considerations. After all the hardship and the happy moment that we went through, there is no secret that we can't share. In the previous incident, I think it is you who over considered that our reaction towards your secret. However, the result proved to us that we are still besties even after you told us the secret, nothing have change much except we get to know you better, understand your inner feeling and this has help to improve our friendship.

Whatever happen, good luck to you, my friend. Hope that you have the guts to chase your dream. Happy ending always waiting for people who have the guts to believe in their dreams.

xoxo

实习记

2010-04-28T07:48:00.000-07:00

实习其实是一件开心的事，不过也许自己知的东西不够多，所以很多东西问了都帮不上手。今天，看见其他同事忙忙碌碌的工作，而且我的上司缺席，自己就可以上面子书，一直更新当今的新闻，从第一段读到最后一段，再从最后一段读到第一段，就可以想象实习是多么的空闲的。不至如此，我还可以读msn的新闻，从政治读到娱乐，再从生活读到经济，今天实习的日子是如此空闲。

今天八点半上班，就期望午餐时间，吃过了午餐时间就期望是下班时间。下班后就躲在家里看连续剧。如此的生活，虽然是毫无意义，但是这是现实所逼，没有办法，只好重复每天做的东西，千篇一律，突然觉得大学生活是如此精彩的。当我们踏入社会后，将来的生活就很现实了。其实，实习的目的是学习书本上学不到的东西，不过由于我公司的性质是把策划和实施分开的，由公司里面的人做策划，再sub给承包商施行，往往才有机会参与策划，没有机会参与实施。人对自己是有期待的，所以每次办活动我们都有所谓的expectation check,目的是测量到底我们的活动有达到参与者的期待。不过，至于这次的实习，我是零期待的，就像一张白纸，去到那边就添上色彩。虽然对白纸的白觉得空虚，至少不是全白，再加上自己的努力，相信是可以交出成绩的。

对了，这世界是太小了。在我实习的公司，是有一位来自UKM的实习生。当我从面子书加他时，才知道他曾经是征的室友，他说曾经见过我，原来是通过我们在清迈和曼谷拍的照片见过。而且，我的前前室友也是征的小学同学，难以想像原来我们是有链接的，也只能说这是缘分中的奇遇吧！

xoxo

实习

2010-04-26T04:38:00.000-07:00

往往人生的第一次是最值得留恋，今天（四月二十六日）也是开始实习的第一天。紧张，兴奋和期待都出现在我的心情里，结果就很早很早的去上班。其实我上班的地点是在沙登，今早七点四十分就出门了，八点就去到工作地点，结果傻傻的等了半个小时。八点半才是我上班时间。我跟权说以后我们八点十五分才出门，如果走小路是不会迟到的。

上到公司就在那儿等了将近一个小时，翻了两份报纸，也读了关于乌雪的补选结果。报纸翻了两次，才被叫上去见负责我的人。负责人也教会了我不少东西，不过多数时间是上网和面子书。我一直期待时间快点到中午十二点，因为那时候是我午餐时间。吃过了午餐，就希望时间快快到五点半，我就可以放工了。虽然第一天是很轻松，但是至少是有学到东西。希望将来十个星期的日子会轻松及充实，这样我就会过得很愉快了。

讲到放工后，往往是最闷的时候。想到吃晚餐，就要想跟谁去吃，去哪里吃。这些烦恼，之前豪实习时也有体会过，现在沦落到我去体会了。希望有自己的交通后，这些烦恼就会迎刃而解，去哪里吃就不是问题了。然而，实习的日子恐怕会千篇一律，所以我对自己说，如果晚上有任何活动，加上交通不是问题，那我一定要把我实习的日子搞得轰轰烈烈，自己的时间过得充实。

Press Freedom

2010-04-22T17:03:00.000-07:00

Press freedom, at least I have done a presentation regarding this topic in my public oration class. Although the lecturer commented that there is a certain degree of fallacy in the argument, and after the class, I email him on which point of my argument resulting misconcept. In the end, may be due to his busy schedule, he didn't reply my email. Well, at least he has allowed me to present a topic that is relevant without any restriction, and above all, at the start of class, he mentioned that he will respect the freedom of expression in the class.

Press freedom is the right to publish news without government interference and prior censorship. Moreover, the press is a channel for information on democracy, human rights and socio-economy justice. This can be achieved by giving information that is fair, accurate, truthful and timely. The press also expose abuse or misuse of power and involve citizens in discussing important decisions. These are the importance of press freedom.

But in reality, our press freedom index is decreasing. According to Reporters Without Borders, in 2007, our ranking is 124 and in 2008, our ranking slide to 132. The decreasing ranking in press freedom index indicated that there is a serious Government interference in our press industry.

The latests issue is the from the TV program 《非谈不可》 aired at NTV 7. The producer, Joshua Wong claimed that there is overzealous self-censorship and government interference. For more information can visit Malaysiakini.com or 当今大马. Personally, I admired his courage to quit from his job, he is a producer with integrity and courage. There is only a few media practitioners with such courage to uphold press freedom in Malaysia. Bravo, Joshua.

When Najib become the Prime Minister, he claimed that he will reform the media industry to achieve a better standard. But first, the government need to respect press freedom before talking about any media reform. The government have to stop all the unnecessary interference in the media industry. But from the reality, this is still a long way to achieve. Giving our TV1 and TV2 are controlled by government, while TV3, NTV7 and TV8 are owned by Media Prima group, a media company that is closely linked with UMNO. With such restriction, the Malaysia hope to achieve press freedom is a long journey.

What I really don't understand is why there must be double standard by the government? The government restrict the topics that can be talked in 《非谈不可》, these restrictions include

1) Not allowed to talk on political issues,

2) Not allowed to invite oppositions to the program,

3) Not allowed to discuss on Hulu Selangor by-election.

All these restrictions are non-sense and is ridiculous. The government need to engage the viewers in this program and there should be no discrimination against either side of the political parties. In the first episode, the topic of discussion is 《国阵VS民联KPI大比拼，谁略胜一筹？》/KPI battle between BN VS PR, who fare well? In the program, the producers have invited both political parties. The problem is MCA that represent the government didn't present their points clearly and this causes the opposition gained a upper hand in the talk show. MCA has failed miserably as a government, unable to pinpoint their policies to convince the people and didn't have any solid stand on national issues. It is no surprise that netizen said that MCA has lost till pants down (输到脱裤). They have run out of political modal to convince people and can be considered bankrupt.

Whatever happen, there must be healthy debate between both sides, and their debate must be aired live, just like what happen in America. In this way, we are able to develop a more matured society that will respect and appreciate the importance of press freedom.

P/s: The author thinks that government interference and censorship is outdated. The government should replace censorship with proper classification and allow the public to make their own choice.

空虚

2010-04-21T07:01:00.000-07:00

天夜了，路上的车也逐渐减少了，在面子书上的人也减少了，也许是因为考试，所以大家都暂时远离上面子书，努力的翻开书苦读。不知几时开始，我自己开始会害怕空虚的感觉。我想应该是自从我搬家后，从Sri Pinang搬到Sri Serdang后，那种感觉就越来越强，有时自己会在挣扎，特别是家里无人时，面对着四面墙，有时真的很空虚到觉得自己很想哭。

曾经想过，为什么我在Sri Pinang时没有空虚的感觉，难道环境有影响吗？在我住Sri Pinang时，那是的我住得很开心，虽然和室友有过一段摩擦，但是那种感觉跟住Sri Serdang有巨大的差别。相当年，傻傻的我们很期待住在一起的感觉，一起过生活的那种感觉。我们时常一起游山玩水，去逛夜市集，去shoppping抢货，去沙登新村尝试美食，去讲别人的是非，去打dota，去抄功课，还有很多美好的回忆，这些都是跟以前的室友一起过的生活。住在Sri Serdang，跟新的室友互动真是几乎是零，所以才会有那空虚感。也许是交通不便，所以才很少出去逛，再加上大家都有自己的生活，所以室友的定位只是一起住在同一间家，每天晚上一起过夜，就酱吧了。可能作者是射手座，是个爱自由和爱冒险的人，喜欢尝试新的东西，而且也贪新厌久，所以缺少新的经验让我感到空虚。

不管怎样，搬都搬了，只能希望将来会搬进来的室友也喜欢群体生活。美好的回忆只能回想，至于将来是自己创造的。

xoxo

“民主乐翻天”时事论坛后感（下）

2010-04-19T21:30:00.000-07:00

“民主乐翻天”时事论坛的题目《国阵民联：谁才是我国人民的未来？》，主讲人有来自国阵的蔡智勇(C)和罗秋俊(L)，名联阵营有欧阳捍华(E)和张念群(T)。当天的点评嘉宾有唐南发(J)，陈亚才(TA)和胡渐彪(G)。主持人是李晓蕙。当天来的人有七百多位。

From the forum, I think that what E said is very narrow minded. He mentioned that Selangor Govenment has provided free water for the first 20m3. He also added that the Selangor state administration has regularised annual RM4 million funds for the state’s Chinese primary schools and RM2 million for Chinese independent high schools, although education is not exactly a power of state. He also mentioned that Selangor Govenment has funded a few development in the New Village. All the benefits mentioned above is based on Selangor state, how about other states that is govern by PR and the generally whole Malaysia? There is some room of improvement for E, moreover he is considered new in politics and has been elected through political tsunami.

While for C, he claimed that BN has outlined a clear direction of the nation's future under the upcoming New Economic Model (NEM) and Government Transformation Program (GTP). The interesting part is BN going to turn Malaysia into a high-income country (GDP more than US$15,000 per annual). It sounds fantastic as pointed out by J but with the increase in the income, will the standard of living also increase proportionally or exponentially. J give a scenario that in future, may be a low cost house in the urban area will burden many low income people. I totally agreed with J. I also wonder how about our basic necessity like healthcare, food and accommodation? With the increasing income, the cost of living in Malaysia will also increase, moreover through the privatization of basic necessity such as water and electric supply, healthcare, etc will Malaysia follow the footstep of our neighboring country, Singapore where the rakyat has to pay a heavy price on the development. What I notice is that both BN and PR didn't mention on the economy development. If given a scenario, PR become the next Federal Govenment in the next election, will they continue the BN's liberalization of economy policy or formulate a more people-centered economy policy. This is a question that played inside my mind because I think that a country economy will fuel the development and progress of the nation, if the economy policy is not formulate correctly, the whole nation will suffer the consequences. If Malaysia are heading the high-income country, are we going to employ huge amount of foreign workers for our manufacturing, plantation and other sectors? Are we heading to an high-end innovation country given that our poor education development? Are we going to sacrifice the social benefit for the rakyat with the high-income goal? As a believer of social democracy, I think this is some of the issues that I'm seeking answer, both from BN and PR.

Chinese Education policy also being touched in the forum. I think that only Chinese education policy is too narrow but have to mention the whole national education policy that includes mother tongue education and vernacular school. May be due to the crowd is mostly Chinese, therefore both parties only mention vernacular school. The quantity of vernacular schools especially the Chinese school in Malaysia is decreasing. Somehow, I felt that this is only a tip of the iceberg, how many Chinese school being build, how many have been allocate, how many has been close down etc, that is too small to discuss. I felt that both parties should discuss the future direction of our education policy since our aim is becoming a high-income country, the education play a very important role in shaping our nation's future. The system of our education should be discussed, are we going to abolish the exam-oriented system and replace with a innovative and intuitive-driven education system. Another that should be discuss is how to integrate racial harmony in our education system since we have different type of school. I'm also searching for the answer from both parties. Both should stop politicize on how many chinese school have been built under BN or PR and how many lands has been allocated to vernacular school, this will not bring our education far, we only go round and round on this issues.

Speaking on racial relationship, T mentioned that PERKASA is an extreme racist group, if MCA really condemn what PERKASA doing, it should condemn it openly and send a loud signal to UMNO that the presence of this type of group only disturb the racial harmony in Malaysia. For this point, I really give thumb up for T. Because from what I read on what PERKASA is doing, it really make me extremely sick. Is this a suitable time for us to champion our racial benefits above our nation benefits? This type of mentality is so outdated, in Bahasa Malaysia is called KOLOT. As a younger generation of Malaysian, we have to demand that equality is the future, where everybody needs to be treated equally. A quotation from T, implementation policies based on needs, not on race. Thumbs up for T. The country has been trapped in the race cycle for almost half of century, and we have to start to change, change for a better. All the policies are based on race, even the admission of matriculation, public universities, award of scholarship and many more are based on race. If Malaysia want to progress, it is time for us to jump out from the race cycle, embrace on meritocracy and support the policies based on needs. If Nelson Mandela can free South Africa from Apartheid, if Obama can be the first Black America president, I wonder when is the time for a non-Bumiputera to become Malaysia Prime Minister? I can imagine PERKASA will say that the non-Bumiputera are demanding so much, they are demanding for this for that, they should be thankful for the citizenship rights etc. Well, PERKASA, we are not living in the stone age, we are living in the space age, please bring your 'KOLOT' mentality back to caves and hopefully don't come out again. Equality should be our future, the wealth distribution, the resources distribution and policies implementation should benefits Malaysian first.

Local Council Election (LCE) also mentioned in the forum. L didn't state his stand on local council election in his speech but after challenged by T, L finally confessed that he support local council election. But, does he sincerely support that or for the sake of gaining support? I think that both parties didn't do well in the local council election part, but if compared BN and PR, I mean at least PR is better than BN in the local council election. What is Najib reply on LCE? It will only creating more politicking in the area. Well, at least PR have started to request LCE from election commission although they merely kick the ball to Election Commission. As rakyat, we need to make informed decision, we can't allow the little Napoleon be our councilors. How many people fed up with the clogged drain? Fed up with the road light that is not function? Fed up with the irregularity in rubbish collection? Fed up with policies implemented by council without consulting the affected people? Sometimes, we are so fed up because we, the people didn't have a say on the things that affecting us. This is why we need LCE, so that we are able to elect people that we think capable of making change in our area, and we are able to monitor the work of the councilors. A check and balance mechanism is important to ensure transparency in the council area. If the councilors didn't perform, we will show the exit in the next election. As easy as that, what does politicking has to do with that? If MCA support LCE, please support it openly and express your concern to BN.

This is just my personal opinions and I respect the freedom of expression of other individual. I think the MCA has lost their role as political party that represent Chinese community interest. All the demand by Chinese community, how many you have fulfill? Talking about Vernacular schools, what have MCA done to increase the vernacular school especially the Chinese school in Malaysia? If there is no general election or by-election, the Chinese school project will never be approved? Does the Chinese community have to wait for every election for the Chinese school to be built? The rakyat should demand our rights from the government and not only waiting for their rights drop from the sky. What role does MCA play in formulating our education policies? Every time when the result of public university admission being announced or the scholarship award being announced, MCA only help those who are unfortunate to forward their appeals. Is this the role that MCA can play? I think as government, it should flex it muscle in the policy formulating process. MCA should institutionalized the education policy and make it fairer for all Malaysian. Last few months, the internal fighting among MCA leaders have badly damaged the credibility of MCA. Even the fighting itself is for the survival of each political careers, does the leaders take the interest of Chinese community seriously? Even in the president election, there is no manifesto that touch on the interest of Chinese community. The interest of Chinese community is threaten by PERKASA. What have MCA, as government done to safeguard the minority right and interest? Publish a few press statements on the newspaper is it enough? Looking back at history, during the Ong Ka Ting time, the MCA didn't involve in politics but involve in social activity. Is MCA trying to depoliticize themselves even though they claimed themselves as political party? Is MCA becoming a non-profit charity based organization? Surely there is room for MCA improvement. A word of advice, never beg the Chinese community to give MCA a chance. It make me feel sick when L said that MCA have changed from the political tsunami and beg the Chinese community to give them a chance. Stop the begging, prove yourself is worthwhile to the Chinese community, prove yourself that you are able to safeguard the minority rights. Prove yourself that you can convince BN to treat every Malaysian equally.

Lastly, I really love the conclusion made by T. She said that may be PR is good at publicity, therefore no need to spend 70 million to hire APCO for image consulting. Damn good conclusion and she received applause from the audience.

P/s: Although I have condemned MCA, it didn't mean that DAP is better than MCA. Is just that MCA is the Federal Government, therefore as rakyat, really hope for the best that he/she can get in Malaysia.

“民主乐翻天”彩色比赛后感（上）

2010-04-19T05:20:00.000-07:00

将近五年我已没用华语写作了，记得最后一次写作是Form 5的华语作文。所以为了这一次的活动，希望我可以用华语来表达我的后感。如果有任何语法错误，请多多指教。

这次的民主乐翻天，所准备的活动包括了儿童彩色比赛，儿童才艺赛，律师咨询和时事论坛。对与儿童彩色比赛真令我头痛。头痛的不是儿童们的不合作，而是家长们的过于关心和过于保护自己的儿子。就举个例子说，有一位母亲带了两位孩子来参加比赛，一位是她的大女儿，另一位是小她几岁的妹妹，分别参与同样的比赛。那位母亲觉得大女儿彩的色比小女儿来的美丽和鲜艳，就因为她这样觉得，结果那位母亲就忙着问工作人员为什么被录取的只有她小女儿的作品，而她的大女儿的作品没被录取，她想知道到底她大女儿的作品有没有交上去。为了敷衍她，我就勉强的回答我会帮你问。几时开始，比较有经验的人一定是好过经验浅薄的人呢？难道这母亲没听过青出于蓝这句话吗？如果换个是我，我一定会开心因为我的小女儿的作品被录取了。然后我会劝大女儿再接再厉，失败和成功是不重要，最重要在过程中学习成长，这是我所希望我孩子会过的童年。

我觉得西方和东方的父母亲对孩子的要求是非常极端不同的，因为我在清迈看的一切，自己有点惊讶。那时跟我们同团的是位丹麦来的夫妇，他们有三位孩子，全部都是男的。当我们在休息站吃午餐是，那三位小孩就忙着爬树，而且那边的树有八尺高，他们的父母亲就看着他们爬，也没有阻止他们。如果换是东方的父母，一定会叫小孩马上下来，乖乖的坐着吃午餐。从这点，我们就问他们的父母亲，难道你不怕你的孩子安全，他们回应说这是给他们学习和玩乐的时候，跌倒了就要学会爬起来。单单这一句，我就有点惊讶，是文化上的冲击。是不是东方的父母亲怕孩子失败和受伤，所以就为孩子将来打算得精打细算，包括去补习班，学游泳，学珠算，学钢琴，学芭蕾舞，还有很多很多东西学。这一点，我们是应该向西方社会学习，孩子的创意是无限的，是我们的社会局限了他们的创意。

说到我们大人局限小孩子的创意，这个现象我从彩色比赛的投票过程看得出，同时能感受到那无奈的感觉。彩色比赛的成绩是由小孩子自己投选出来的，每个人都有三张票，可以投选你自己最心爱的三个作品。最大的问题是父母亲会在旁边指指点点，说要投给这个那个，真的是有的没的，听了都有生气。难道父母亲不可以让孩子们用他们手上的一票投给自己喜欢的吗？漂亮和美丽有标准的吗？为什么父母亲不相信孩子们的直觉，他们的眼观？父母亲的指指点点将会抹杀孩子们的创意，只是依照社会所规定的标准来灌输给孩子，那跟我program电脑有何差别？虽然我曾经是过路人，经过如此的灌输法，但我希望我的孩子不会铺我后路。孩子们的童年因该是由孩子们创造出来，当然父母亲的角色只是辅导，但是今天的场景已经是父母亲主导，孩子只是像应声虫麻木的更随父母亲的指示，这一点身为有想法的父母亲/将要成为父母的应该去思考。

孩子们的思想是犹如一张白纸，父母亲就是颜色了，如果要那张白纸彩色得鲜艳和美丽，那么是应该由孩子们自己上色，彩出自己喜欢的一幅画。

P/s：作者的童年就犹如来彩色比赛的小孩子，全都由父母亲安排，所以没有机会过自己创造的美丽童年。不过，他希望将来自己的孩子会过一个比他还要好，还要民主的童年。

天黑黑

2010-04-16T22:52:00.000-07:00

那天星期四去唱K,有人选了孙燕姿的天黑黑.听了那首歌,我爱上了它的旋律和歌词.

我爱上让我奋不顾身的一个人
我以为这就是我所追求的世界
然而横冲直撞被误解被骗
是否成人的世界背后总有残缺
我走在每天必须面对的分岔路
我怀念过去单纯美好的小幸福
爱总是让人哭让人觉得不满足

虽然我没有谈过恋爱,但这首歌深深地打动我的心.

Juggling Time

2010-04-15T20:32:00.000-07:00

One week has gone, initially I thought some of the things I'm unable to do it, but now I have completed. Along the process, I notice that mentality when facing a problem is crucial in determine the outcome. I felt that there is some case that I didn't handle it well, but this is a learning process of growing up.

Back to the topic, Charles Tou's tour was fantastic. Although I can't accompany him along his journey, still there is some day that we have fun together. Going for a tour after exam and the next exam is on the alternate day, this only leave one day for study. Going to sing k one day before exam was excited. Looking back at what I done, I didn't regret at all. I start to realise that exam is only tiny, yes very tiny part in our life. If my result is not good, I will not regret about it because I have tried my best. It will come to juggling between study and activity. After 3 years in university, I have manage to accumulate a certain degree of CGPA in my grade, even though the next 3 semester result is not excellent, it only will give slight different in my CGPA. I know that I can't get first class anymore, what can be done is to maintain the current result. I know my target very well and with this I am able to prioritize my priority.

The next activity will be human rights carnival and the day after that is biochemical engineering exam. I will study the biochemical and at the same time committed in the human rights carnival. I don't like to give up something due to the sake of study. What is important is both are able to coexist side by side. For now, is all about try my best and live life to the fullest.

P/s: When writing this post, my heart felt very relax, may be due the perspective that I handle stress and most of the exam that I have completed. ^^

Batu Caves Tour

2010-04-12T23:30:00.001-07:00

Morning is my optimization final exam. Luckily is open book and open lecture exam. During the exam period, some of the question I don't know how to answer, but when imagine the fun moment make me excited.

Tip 1: DIY Kuala Lumpur tour is not recommended at all. The unfriendly public transport, the hot weather and the throat killing taxi driver will leave you a bad memories.

Aw Yong, Charles, Swee Nee and I going to Batu Caves for a visit. What is more surprising is all of us never been there although Aw Yong, Swee Nee and I have live in Malaysia for more than 20 years. After doing google, we managed to find the correct public transport to Batu Caves. It feel very excited for this first time going to Batu Caves.

We reached Batu Caves around 3.00pm. At first, seeing the golden statue is an eye opening experience. Then the next challenge is climbing the 272 stair case. It is an easy task for most of us except Swee Nee. Swee Nee told me that Soo Wei has climbed the stairs before, so as a word of encouragement, I told her that you also can do it as what Soo Wei has achieve before. Along the stairs, we have to wait for Swee Nee, next time have to recommend you to exercise. Climb Sungai Lembing Hill also slow, climb Batu Caves also slow, you really need to exercise.

Reaching the top of Batu Caves, take a few photos and go inside to the main temple. My first impression is quite disappointed, may be I expected too much from Batu Caves. As compared to Chiang Dao, this Batu Caves really small and don't have many tourist attraction. Go inside there and pray for good luck, taking photo and see monkey f***ing. Then went down the stairs again and take a rest at the nearby restaurant.

Next, our nightmare just started. We are heading to the outside of Batu Caves and waiting for bus, along the way we didn't see any bus stop. We don't have any choice but to walk under bloody hot sun. Along the journey, we saw a lot of bus pass through, we are so frustrated. Walking for 15 minutes and we reached a mamak stall, the boss is so generous and told us that walk for another 5 minutes and you will reach the stop where the bus will stop. There is no bus stop there but the bus will stop there. Weird huh?

We keep walking but all of us have sweat a lot and the weather is hot too. What a difficult journey to Batu Caves. If compare to Thailand, I think Malaysia tourism still have a lot of improvement that can be done. What I notice in Thailand is that foreign tourists love free and easy tour. Moreover the public transport and the taxi service is much more better than Malaysia. If Malaysia really want to be world class tourism, there is more that can be done.

P/s:

1) Charles, hope that the journey didn't bore you.

2) Swee Nee, you manage to lose some weight along the journey. It is a good thing, I guess.

3) Aw Yong, thanks for sacrificing his home sweet home time for accompany us to Batu Caves.

Never Experience Such Before!

2010-04-09T09:42:00.000-07:00

In 2 weeks, I am going for my industrial training. In this 2 weeks, there is a lot of things need to be done. I mean a lot of things and never felt such before.

Bio-ethanol Plant Design Project

This design project really gives a me headache. The economy analysis really make me insane. Basically, economy analysis depends very much on equipments and the mass and energy balance of the process. But the mass and energy balance always need to modify. After modification, all the costing need to change again. Today I face with taxation and is going to make me crazy. Not to mention the discounted cash flow and depreciation. I can imagine if in reality, I will outsource all this economy analysis to a professional consultant to do. All the figure make my eyes blur and I wish that my bank account will have that much of money. What worse is the submission of the final report is on next friday and is totally clash with my final exam.

Final Exam

This semester final exam I really don't have the time to prepare. I can only pray hard that I am able to pass the exam. I can forecast that this semester results will be worse than before, with design project come hand in hand with final, I am trying my best while preparing for the worst. Whatever happen, I must be strong to face it. No matter what is the result outcome, the only things in my mind is finish the exam fast and pass the exam. It is that all I can wish for.

Charles Tou's KL Tour

Out of so many week that you can choose, why must you come on next week. With my design project and exam, I have to apologize if I can't accompany you to walk around Kuala Lumpur. I can only hope that my friends especially Swee Nee and Aw Yong can accompany you during your Malaysia visit. I have to thanks all of them for taking time out. Swee Nee, thanks for the planning and be his tour guide. Aw Yong, thanks for sacrificing your time going and accompany Charles with Swee Nee. I know the scarification is hard. I hope you all are able to mix well with him. Have fun!

Human Rights Carnival

This a good and educational carnival but the problem is being held during my exam. Worse is that the next day is biochemical engineering exam. All the facts and figure need to memorize for biology. My memory is not as good as in secondary school. I dislike biology because I am suck at memorizing. I can only hope for the best for biochem. I'm not really sure I can commit on the human rights carnival, I have to apologize first for unable to fully commit in the program. Hope that you all understand.

I can only say this 2 weeks is the toughest time in my 3 years university life. I never experiencing such great stress before. I need to find somebody talk, seriously. Staring at Facebook, looking at friend's status, that people already at their home town and preparing for their exam make me feel imbalance. I feel like wanna scream out loud for nothing. Although I'm a liberal guy, at this moment I hope that God will give me strength and faith to go through this 2 weeks. I need encouragement, need positive thinking. Not sure why my feeling is so empty.

God, with my faithful heart, please bless my journey ahead.

xoxo

Being Gay

2010-04-03T23:28:00.000-07:00

Last week, Latin pop star Ricky Martin dropped a bombshell by announcing that he is a fortunate homosexual man.
Ricky Martin wrote "Today is my day, this is my time, and this is my moment. These years in silence and reflection made me stronger and reminded me that acceptance has to come from within and that this kind of truth gives me the power to conquer emotions I didn't even know existed ... I am proud to say that I am a fortunate homosexual man. I am very blessed to be who I am."

For sure, his announcement will crush millions of female fans. With his hot song and sexy dance, who can resist his charm? Ricky Martin has joined few male celebrities that have openly announced their sexual orientation. As I remember, Adam Lambert, Mark from Westlife, Clay Aiken, to name a few that has to conquer their fear and take a lot of guts to announce their sexual orientation openly.

Those examples are taken from Western countries. How about in Asian countries especially in Malaysia? Are Malaysia ready to accept homosexual celebrity? For sure, religious leaders will condemn those homosexual behaviour, stating that their behaviour is forbidden by God, against natural behaviour etc… I not trying to justified that homosexual is morally correct but I think those homosexual have made their choice and in the process of making this choice, surely they have struggle within themselves. Whether we accept them or not, one thing for sure is we should never discriminate them.

Besides, how is the acceptance of people around you for homosexual behaviour? I have asked some of my friends and their response is quite negative. One respondent, A stated that if I found out that I am homosexual, I will kill myself first. My first response is shocked, is it so terrible to be a homosexual that you have to end your life. What if people that you care like your family member is homosexual? Are you going to expel them from your family forever? A has muted for a while and reply that this will never happen. I can only hope that he is right.

On the other hand, I have a friend, K that has openly announced that he is gay. At first, I am curious about how is his family response. I heard the news that after a while, his family has accepted what he is today. In fact, his family has given him support for him to continue his life. I think K has gone through a journey as tough as hell. K knows that he is gay but still has to hide the truth from other people. He is afraid that his family and society can’t accept his behaviour. The road for K is an uphill task, I can only wish all the best for him. Hopefully he can be as successful as others in future.

Whether people are homosexual, heterosexual or bisexual, we shall not discriminate against them based on their sexual orientation. Religion and culture should not be used as an excuse for restricting their freedom, in fact religion should be more supportive to these people. We shall not discriminate against them because we believe that all human are born equal and those homosexual has their freedom to choose their life.

Politicking

2010-03-31T17:19:00.000-07:00

Politicking is activity directed towards acquiring power and influence.

Personally, I'm not against politicking. However, when there is too many politicking, this will become a problem. Some people are very good at politicking, moreover many people are not empowered and unable to see the whole show behind the politicking process.

One of the usual way where people start to politick is during a meal. A meal will never be as easy as a meal, there is always an agenda in the meal. I get the feedback that when a senior has meal with junior, there is always an agenda. I also feel that during my junior year. After a while, I get used to that type of politicking. It is not always as terrible as what you think, we have to look at the intention of politicking. If the intention is good, then there should be no problem. I hope that you all can notice the difference.

Open your eyes and look through politicking: their intention, their aims etc. Don't trap in their politicking.

Unnecessary

2010-03-25T05:36:00.000-07:00

What a hectic week, this is what I can conclude.
Senior, junior and super junior are involved in the quarrel.
All this because of the esmp system and some selfish people.
I don't understand the point of register 4 courses while you only need 2.
Does these people know what is the feeling when you can't register even one course?
How do you portrait yourself among coursemate？
Please be more sensible to your fellow friends and drop the selfish attitude.
You only will make the situation worse.

To the senior,
You did mention that everyone also want to the best for them.
I agreed with you on that.
But you also mention the world would never be fair.
I totally disagreed on that.
If you think that the world will never be fair, then you should make it fair.
People want the best for them, but they can't achieve it by illegal ways or stepping others.
This is not the quality of people that our education system aim to produce.

To course mate,
Don't be so kiasu,
Don't be so selfish.
You only take whatever that you want.
There is no point you register all and in the end only need 2 subjects.
This kind of attitude will destroy your future.
This is still room of improvement before you start your career.

To juniors,
I very pity with you all for becoming the victim.
Let this be a lesson.
Try to think before you take any action.
Because every action has reaction.
Stop being a follower without think.
I'm sorry that my batch involve you all in this.

Let this be a lesson for all of us. Once bitten, twice shy.

xoxo

Piss me off

2010-03-16T08:50:00.000-07:00

The action by someone really piss me off. Some irresponsible people has uploaded my photos to a social network website. Her action has caused terrible uncomfort to me. I have warned her boyfriend that I dislike this type of activity and it is really an unhealthy culture. Yet he didn't stop her from doing, in fact he has assisted his gf from uploading photo to describing the photo.

What is the joy of doing this? If you really reading this blog, try to rethink what do you gain from this action? You are doing this without the owner will. Is it something that you have fun when doing it? Have you ever think of what other will think?

So many things happen, in fact your relationship with K is an uphill journey. So many people against your relationship and so many challenges you have gone through. You have reminded me many times that never tell anyone about that story. Well, I keep my promise and I never tell anyone about that. Now back to thist situation, I have reminded you that I'm against this activity and yet you are still doing it against my will. Try to put yourself in my shoe. Are you going to be happy when I tell your story to the whole UPM? The same feeling goes for me.

I respect your freedom of expression. As a human rights activists that champion human rights, equality and democracy, I agreed with freedom of expression. However, freedom come with responsibility. This has to come back to your responsibility when exercising your freedom and your rights. Don't abuse the freedom of expression for the sake of fun! As an ex-activist, surely you understand the concept of freedom of expression with responsibility. When you are exercising your rights, your action will bring consequences to others either direct or indirectly, whether you realize it or not.

Let me give you an example, when you post something regarding Jack Neo's scandal in social network website, the comments that you get is negative. What hurts the most is K's housemate cum sister label you negatively. This action has hurt K feelings. You have your rights to exercise freedom of expression, but when you are expressing something, the responsibility will fall on you. Your expression has triggered some negative comments, whether you realize it or not, the action will bring impact to someone. When someone feel the impact, they will react to it. Exercise your rights with responsible and gain people respect. But the outcome of your action has triggered negative reaction, in the end you have no choice but to delete the post. Put it in another way, let say you never write that post, surely you can avoid all these disaster. This is why I keep emphasize that exercising your rights and freedom with responsible. I thought that you have learned your lesson in this case but seems like you still didn't learn it. I wonder how many years do you need to learn this noble act - responsibility. You always take things for granted and becoming more irresponsible.

Lastly, you and K have exercise your rights, now is my turn to react. In future, think before you do.

P/s: My blog has becoming a place where I can write my feeling. When the ears are down, there is still blog for me to express my joy or sadness.

xoxo

Looking Back, Looking Forward

2010-03-15T08:20:00.000-07:00

Looking back at history is not an easy thing, especially when I didn't learn the lesson from the history. But now, I felt very strange because I am following the foot steps from my previous seniors. Since now I'm in third year and I always think what does a senior do when they are going to graduate? I guess is finding the successor.

Although I still have one more year in campus life, I start to understand the importance of finding successor, and this is a crucial task to sustain the movement. Finding successor is an uphill task and it is never easy. In my second year, I always underestimated that the movement will sustain and a leader will appear when I'm in third year. I always take things for granted in my second year, however a twist of fate have challenged my conventional wisdom. From an optimum amount of juniors in first year, their knowledge and ideology starting to grow in the second year, however the amount of people is starting to decrease. In my third year, the movement just left me, what an uphill task and it is against all odds! I'm proudly declared that I'm a survivor.

Instead of complaining about my situation, I would like to be optimistic. I think in terms of quantity, the amount in my next batch is quite optimistic, now back to the problem is the quality - leadership quality. Becoming a leader is never an easy task, especially you have to equip yourself with every skills that you learned in your life. The period of honeymoon is gone and is time for some serious business. A leader must take responsibility and faces all the challenges. It is time for you to grow up and your learning must be exponentially fast. It may be a rewarding task but be prepared to face the music if you took the wrong step. However, I think this is part of learning process that make us mature, university should not be a place for us to score 4.00 but it is also a place for us to nurture our leadership, communication and other skills as well.

From my experience, a person will be reluctant to take up the leadership role as long as other will take. In my second year, I have such mentality. But as soon as you notice that there is no other left, you will have to take up the responsibility. Now you can push the responsibility to others, once you are in third year, things will change suddenly and you have to start to behave like a senior, that means taking up responsibility. Gone with the time where everything you can rely on your senior, you have to adapt to the changes. It will not an easy task to adapt, I faced the situation before and it is even harder for you to prepare mentally. I suggest whoever junior that reads this article, start preparing yourself physically and mentally. The whole responsibility will rotate in a cycle, after me is you, then is your junior and the cycle goes on.

I believe that seniors would let you fall and still they can guide you along the way. But the question is back to you, are you prepare to take the responsibility? Also be prepared to make some sacrification, no pain no gain. I didn't expect an answer now, but when the time come, I hope that you will have answer.

xoxo

Marié Digby

2010-02-20T03:33:00.000-08:00

Marié Digby is nobody without Youtube. She is known for her acoustic version of 'umbrella' through Youtube. Although I didn't like her version as compared to Rihanna, it is able to grab my attention through her work.

After her 'umbrella', In 2008 she come out with a single titled ' Say It Again'.

In 2009, A few single from her catch my attention. This includes: Avalanche and Feel. She has released an album titled Breathing Underwater. For now, I still prefer her style as Youtube artist than recording artist.

Nobody - Wonder Girls

2010-02-18T20:32:00.000-08:00

I admit that I'm not a big fan of Korean artists, but there is some exception for this song. This song is very catchy and the tunes is fast and smooth. Although this song has popular for some time, it is still not too late to appreciate such art work.

Music didn't recognize boundaries, don't you agree with me?

Golden Moment for Golden Tiger Year

2010-02-18T06:34:00.001-08:00

In this golden tiger year, I went back to Malacca to celebrate Chinese New Year with my grandmother. There is some remarkable moment that is funny.

I remember there is one time, an interesting conversation take place.

Grandmother: do you have any girlfriend?

Me: Don’t you think is too early to ask such question. I’m still haven’t finish my study, after I finish, then I will find one.

Grandmother: That is too late. Do you know that your grandfather is 20 years old when he married me. You still don’t want to find one is too late?

Me: That is different. Time has changed, this is the new era and now is 21st century. Now if you married early without any paper qualification, people will that you are itchy.

Grandmother: ……

That is the first time she asked me about my status. There is also a second time where she asked about my status.

Auntie C: I heard A’s daughter and her husband have registered. When are they going to marry?

Auntie A: This year is not a suitable year to get marry, have to wait for another year.

Grandmother: There is no such thing. You just need to refer which date is a good date to get marry is enough. Why don’t to quickly to get marry?

Me: Grandmother is like that, rush people to get marry. She always asked me when I want to find a girlfriend.

Grandmother: Do you know that your grandfather is 20 years old when he married me.

Auntie C: Time has change. Last time where got entertainment, internet and shopping. What people can do is get marry. (I think she refer to make love)

Me: Correct. Last time where got transport, now is totally different. Everyday go shopping also can provided you have money. Grandmother always biased, she said if her granddaughter go out with another boyfriend, then she is itchy. If grandson, she will asked when do want to have a girlfriend.

Auntie C: Yes, my mother is like that. I still remember she said itchy, itchy until juice come out.

Every people sitting at there have a good laugh.

By the way, for those who are rabbit, this year is a good year to find a partner because of blossom flower luck (桃花运很旺). Until now, I can only keep my finger cross and hope that in this golden tiger year, I will have a better luck.

xoxo

You Gave Up Before Others Gave Up On You

2010-02-09T08:07:00.000-08:00

L: Bingo! 1st test full mark~~haha

N: 当你已经决定放弃一件事，就算你得到其他的成就，我也觉得没什么。因为，选择在你手里，到了现在，我似乎看不到你有回头的一天了。You gave up before others gave up on you.

L: 1st test满分是件很八股的事......所以并不是什么成就。

L: 新年来了，过去一年，如果我有做错什么事(或选择)或讲错什么话(有意或无意)的话，在这里我说声：对不起。请你们宽恕我.....Maaf Zahir dan Batin, minta maaf atas kesalahan yang saya lakukan sepanjang tahun ni. Happy chinense new year.

The above quote is taken from social network website.

My opinion is based on 2 aspect. The first I would like to talk about the success by the L. Then I will share the reality felt by N.

Congratulation to L. It looks like after all the very hard work and dedication that you have put in, at last you have tested the sweet success. Well done, you have done yourself proud, keep up all the good work and I wish all the best for your future.

How significant is the test for you? Test is normally measure your academic achievement, but bear in mind that the academic achievement is not absolute. I respect the decision that you have made but the decision that you made is not about you, it will also affect the people around you. Sometimes making decision will have to take into consideration of many factors, it is not all about you, it is about the affect that you bring to the whole community or organization.

Decision making process is never an easy task, however for some selfish people, whatever the decision that he/she made, he/she will never care how other people will react, this is my right to choose, I have the freedom to choose. This is how I classified people who are selfish. From my observation, not only from the above case, there is other case that you portrait a selfish image. Even for some life or death case, the decision that you choose not only make me disappointed, but also make the victim bloody disappointed. Sometimes, I didn't blame the victim but I blame you for your irresponsible decision. You can let go some of your responsibility if you think this is burdening you but you can't sweep your ass and say is none of my matter anyway.

If you know you have done something wrong or making the wrong decision, you still have chance to make it right. There is no use to keep apologize when there is chances that you can fix it. It is better late than never. Letting go of responsibility is not a noble act, it is a form of escape from reality. Somehow in other way, it will haunt you back in future.

N said you gave up before others gave up on you. I agreed with you, N. I guess you also put a lot of effort on L but also didn't think that he will ended like this. Not only you, I guess others also have the same feeling. For me, sometimes I feel very disappointing looking other who fall along the journey. But I am an optimistic people, I like to look for the best among people, people fall - people rise, this is an adventurous journey and I hope that in the end I will stand with people who help and accompany me through this journey. This is why I never give up and I always try my best effort to do it although I not the best among the best.

Somehow I didn't give up on L. I still remember there is one time I analysis the problem with L but the reality is harsh, L gives me the feeling of escaping from the problems. I can analyzed the problem and even provide the recommendations to L, yet it still depends on you whether you want to do the necessary adjustment. At least I did put some effort on L, other people also have put their effort on you. Not to mention people who are younger than you and your junior also.

Whatever what the result is, you have made your decision, I also made my decision. You choose not to solve but to escape, so be it. A word of advice, in future when making any decision, don't be selfish and take into consideration for the people around you.

xoxo

Chiang Mai & Bangkok

2010-02-05T05:47:00.000-08:00

Once in a life time experience traveling with two buddies on a bag pack trip to Chiang Mai & Bangkok, Thailand.

Day 1 (10/12/2009 Thursday)
Arrive in Chiang Mai International Airport
City Tour (Wat Chedi Luang, Wat Phra Singh, Wat Chiang Man)
*All the Wat seem like the same, may be I don't know how to appreciate the art.

Day 2 (11/12/2009 Friday)
Doi Inthanon (The highest peak in Thailand)
*Cold weather, so beautiful. Must visit to the King and Queen's pagoda.

Day 3 (12/12/2009 Saturday)
Doi Suthep
Saturday night market at Chiang Mai gate
*The Wat in Doi Suthep is golden shine. Night market very long long long.

Day 4 (13/12/2009 Sunday)
Wat Jet Yot
Chiang Mai national musuem
Sunday night market at Thaphae gate
*If you stay near to Thaphae gate, you can shop till you drop.

Day 5 (14/12/2009 Monday)
Chiang Rai/Golden Triangle/Mae Sai
*Not recommended. Very far but not much attraction to see.

Day 6 (15/12/2009 Tuesday)
Chiang Dao
*Go for the cave. Have to thanks Terry and his partner from UK for fetching us from there to Chiang Mai (~1.5 hours) Such a generosity given to a stranger.

Day 7 (16/12/2009 Wednesday)
Arrival in Bangkok Suvarnabhumi International Airport
Bangkok Calypso caberet show
*Nice show. We managed to get quite cheap ticket (~Bht430)

Day 8 (17/12/2009 Thursday)
Wat Phra Kaew/Grand Palace
Wat Pho
Wat Arun
Shopping outside Pratunam area
*So big and many people. Remember to wear appropriate clothes which cover your knees.

Day 9 (18/12/2009 Friday)
Ayutthaya
Shopping @ Central World area
*Ancient city of Thailand. Follow the tour and come down then take photo.

Day 10 (19/12/2009 Saturday)
Jatujak weekend market
Shopping @ Siam Paragon area
*The pride of Bangkok, my pride to shop at there.

Day 11 (20/12/2009 Sunday)
Bangkok walkabout
*Busy city with horrible traffic jam.

Day 12 (21/12/2009 Monday)
Watch Avatar
Mango Tango shop
*Damn nice Mango shop. If go to Bangkok, must eat their mango. Juicy and yummy.

Day 13 (22/12/2009 Tuesday)
Return to KL LCCT

P/s: I don't recommend to stay at Khao San provided you are looking for overly crowded and happening place.

Chinese Chinese Chinese

2010-02-05T04:53:00.000-08:00

There is something that is confusing me. The above photo was taken from 自成一格. For those who didn't read mandarin, the poster stated that campus election is on 26th January and encourage all the students to come out and vote. This follow by Chinese will voice out Chinese's voice. Then, last year there is no Chinese student representatives for campus seat (Umum). They even use the word 全军覆没 (All the Chinese candidates for last year campus election lost).

Can someone do a reality check? Does this statement familiar? It looks very similar to MCA's statement. This really make me wonder, is it that important to have a Chinese student representative in the council? Why there must a race-based and not merit-based student representatives? Do all the Chinese will protect the Chinese interest? What do they refer to Chinese's voice? Does student welfare know what is the colour of your skin?

In my opinion, what does Chinese students need is also needed by other races in term of student welfare. Student welfare didn't recognize the colour of our skin, it is a universal welfare that is needed for everyone. It is for the good of students. For example, getting a wifi connection in the colleges will benefits everybody regardless of race. Cheaper meals also provide benefits for all the students and this go to other student welfare as well.

Now is the time for us to change, recognizing merit and capability is more important than race. The world has move on, 2008 American have chosen an African American to be their president. This is a trend bought by globalization, if we really need a competent student representatives, then we need to choose them based on merit and not race.

P/s: Although I'm Chinese, I recognize the importance of capability and merit more than race.

[Opinion] Student reps disqualified over Facebook campaign

2010-02-05T04:28:00.000-08:00

The reason to disqualify 7 elected student representatives doesn’t justified. The reasons given are campaigning on social networking website and internet such as blog and Facebook without permission. As a university student of UPM, I feel disappointed and sympathy to the 7 student reapresentatives.

The campaign period for UPM campus election is only 1 day, which falls on 25/1/2010. In such a short campaign period, it is impossible for the candidates to publicize his/her manifesto to all students because there are around 16,055 students in the campus. Imagine that the candidates have to meet 669 students per hour provided he is campaigning for 24 hours. This is not only time consuming but also a waste of human power.

One of the goals of UPM is to to make UPM fully connected based on information and communication technology (ICT). What is the use of not utilize the advantages brought by ICT? In this era of globalization, in order for us to compete globally, it is important for us to master and fully utilized the ICT.

For campus election, as the time progress, the method of campaigning has changed. In recent year, many of the election campaigning is done online, for example our Prime Minister has dedicated his 1Malaysia blog, Twitter and Facebook to engage with savvy and young voters. The same goes to other political parties in Malaysia.

Going further to global context, America president, Barrack Obama has managed to utilize the social networking website for his campaign. As compared to UPM campus election, this doesn’t make any sense for UPM who wished to become a university of international repute while denying the candidates to campaign online?

Using internet and social networking website to campaign not only connects people, but also provide interaction between students and student representatives. It is important to gather feedbacks from the students to improve their welfare. The internet and social networking have provided this platform for such purposes. The intention of UPM to disallow campaign through internet not only shut the student voice, but also killed the student creativity.

Lastly, hopefully the university authority will reconsider their actions and abolish any election laws that disallow campaigning through online. Such action will only degrade UPM reputation in the field of academic, information and communication technology.

What About Now

2009-07-20T03:56:00.000-07:00

I'm an average joe, just trying to make ends meet, can I make a difference? One day, in a corner, a light went on, an idea was born. I am the difference, between justice and injustice, between right and wrong, the voice lives on when someone take a STAND. Says:-
I am the end of poverty,
I am a different path,
I am the call for human rights,
I am the hands that heal all mankind,
Love can change the world.

The Climb Vs The Road Not Taken

2009-04-18T23:54:00.000-07:00

Recently saw so many people who is having doubts on their future, some of them have used poem from Robert Frost, The Road Not Taken to describe their doubts. For those who are still choosing which road he/she needs to take for them to reach their destination, may be this song will give you some inspirations.

The struggles I'm facing / 我面对的每次搏击
The chances I'm taking / 我抓住的每次机遇
Sometimes might knock me down but / 有时会令我一败涂地
No I'm not breaking / 却决不会磨去我的意志
I may not know it / 或许我不懂其中的意义
But these are the moments that / 但这些时刻却会成为
I'm gonna remember most, yeah / 我一辈子可以珍藏的回忆，啊
Just gotta keep going / 只管继续前进
And I, I gotta be strong / 我要，我要变得坚强
Just keep pushing on 'cause / 只须奋力前行，因为

There's always gonna be another mountain / 总会有下一座山峦
I'm always gonna wanna make it move / 在等我去将它移开
Always gonna be an uphill battle / 总会有下一个山坡
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose / 很可能令我无法越过
Ain't about how fast I get there / 不在于我要用多久才能抵达顶峰
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side / 不在于山那边倒底是怎样的风景
It's the climb / 这就是攀登

Earth Hour 2009

2009-03-08T06:05:00.000-07:00

Earth Hour started in 2007 in Sydney, Australia with 2.2 million homes and businesses turning their lights off for one whole hour. Only a year later and this event had become a global sustainability movement with up to 100 million people across 35 countries participating. Global landmarks such as the Golden Gate Bridge in San Francisco, Rome’s Colosseum and the Coca Cola billboard in Times Square, all stood in darkness, as symbols of hope for a cause that grows more urgent by the hour.
Source: Earth Hour

Remember to note down in your calender. On March 28 at 8.30pm, remember to switch off your lights for one hour. Yes! Everyone can make a difference. We are joining million of people around the globe to make an impact.

It’s as simple as a flick of the switch.

Helpless

2009-02-26T00:42:00.000-08:00

Suddenly I'm feeling so helpless. May be I will disappear for a while and very sorry for the disappointment.

For those people who fight for the University and Univeristy College Act issues in UUM. I will give my support and bleesing. All the best and good luck for them.

Hero

'And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you'

You Are Loved (Don't Give Up)

'Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you lost inside
I...I will be there to find you

Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I...I will shine to guide you'

Don't give up. All the best!

Starting to like Bangkok

2009-02-17T08:27:00.000-08:00

Indeed, Bangkok is much better than Kuala Lumpur. From the airport to the city center by taxi is enough to gives me the excellent first impression. Here is some example:-

1) The car used by Bangkok is Toyota while KL is Proton.
2) The Bangkok's 7-11 is much more compact and versatile than KL. I started to like to shop at there.
3) Their shopping center offer more choices than KL.
4) Their products is damn cheap. One pair of slipper only 35Baht (~RM3.50)
5) Their people is very friendly. One of the shop assistant at Siam Paragon brought me to the payment counter when I can't find it. The McD's staff says thank you with much sincere.

I don't know what else I can say. Maybe is true that the moon at other sides is brighter.

祝福

2009-02-03T03:57:00.000-08:00

给敬爱的友人，在此献上一首歌祝福你。不管你情况如何，至少我会支持你。

Turning Point

2009-02-02T09:13:00.000-08:00

Went there with Chinese New Year mood, then suddenly then sour. What can I say? Oh my God, the mood suddenly become turning point of the event. Didn't expect much from it, but due to my inability to judge the situation, the situation is out of my imagination. There is a Chinese saying: 溪云初起日沉阁，山雨欲来风满楼. Translate become some sign of tension before a bad situation occurred.

Back from campus election fever, starting to feel good about myself....

Campus Election 2009

2009-01-19T07:46:00.000-08:00

Taking part in this year campus election is an eye-opener for me and I agreed that I will never regret for whatever that I have done. I'm quite disappointed that I didn't win in this campus election given the fact that I'm a 'kiasu' person. I'm not the person that makes up my mind quickly. In fact, I only decided to be a candidate on 12/1 (Monday) while the nomination date fell on 16/1 (Friday).

At first, there is 2 friends and me that take part in this campus election. However, one of the candidates has been disqualified due to his address problem. Therefore, it is quite stressful for me to continue this journey. I have a week long of sleepless night during campus election. I always wake up in the middle of the night and start to think about things that related to campus election. I worried about my result, worried that how people precept me, dirty politics played by opponents etc. It is a painful journey for me during that week and I also made a few phone calls to my friend in USM. He is also a candidate for the campus election 2009. Along the way, he encouraged me to take part, be confidence and try my best. He remind me that I have nothing to lose if I participate in this campus election. At this moment, most of my course mates are very supportive even though they knew that I'm anti-establishment (Pro-Mahasiswa).

Along the journey, I have learned more about the behavior of people. Only a few of the opponent candidates that I meet quite nice and friendly, actually is less than 2, but I still can't figure out what is the motive behind their 'friendliness'. While some are quite disgust. Disgust in a way that like trying a find a way to disqualified their opponents (I hate this type of people), yield or talk bad about their opponents and they didn't even greet when I meet them face to face. I really think that this type of people don't deserve to be student leaders and obviously not even friend. Try to think outside the box. How long can you be student leader? At most is two years and how long a friendship will last? All this campus election stuff or student leader will come to end one day but the friendship bond is the most valuable essence. One more things, the student leaders were elected by students to serve them, to care for the students welfare and not to show off by wearing coat or travel oversea.

I admit that I didn't have time to know all the candidates, but compared with some of the candidates that I meet, I really deserved the credit. When there is a rule stated that no leaflet & banner were allowed in this campus election, many candidates don't dare to challenge the rule because they are afraid of being disqualified. However, I break the rule when I'm doing my campaign. We as an adult need to differentiate what is correct and vice versa. I think campus election campaign without leaflet or banner may be the first in the world.

Some of the candidates are coward. If you are given a case where the university wants to raise our tuition fee, is the student leaders will speak up or just 'follow the rule'? Is this the type of student leaders that you want? Their history have proved that they are the person who 'follow the rule'. However if they were elected, I truly hope that they will fight for the student welfare. I will have to wait and see.

Result out, I lost. Disappointed however it is still a long journey.

The Road Less Taken

2008-12-31T08:32:00.000-08:00

New year, new hope, new resolution, new cloths perhaps? My new year start with arriving at a crossroad and have to make a choice from here.

First choice is the road taken by most of the people, keep studying and graduate with first class honors. While the second road is the the road less taken. Not many people dare to take this road and no one know what is the risk involved. Once taken this road, there is no turning back and I also can't guarantee how is my future result. One thing for sure, this road hold a lot of promises and also full of traps.

Any comment / opinion / guidance?

Cycling for Change (Rakyat Pengayuh Perubahan)

2008-12-20T06:51:00.000-08:00

18th December is the climax for JERIT (Jaringan Rakyat Tertindas) cycling campaign. The campaign organizer had planned to hand over memorandum to Prime Minister Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi and opposition leader Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim at the Parliament building on that day. The peninsula-wide cycling campaign aimed at raising the awareness of the public on various issues. This includes:-

· Minimum wage act

· Abolish draconian act such as ISA, OSA, UUCA etc

· Comfortable housing for all the people

· Control the price of essential items such as food

· Local council election

· Stop the privatization of basic necessity such as water, healthcare etc

While all the issues mentioned above are nothing new or didn’t posses any threat to the country, but it is not an easy ride for them to reach the Parliament especially they were watched closely by the police and Special Branch (SB) Officers. I still able to recalled the word ‘SB’, this word has been mentioned before by my General Studies (Pengajian Am) teacher during my Form 6 class. At first I thought he just talks big (吹水) but today I truly believed that SB officers exist in Malaysia. Right before the campaign started, the participants had run foul of police, who had temporarily arrested them along the route to Kuala Lumpur. Some of the participants have been change with all types of offences such as child exploitation, illegal procession and who knows what type of ridiculous offences.

From my point of view, I think that as a democracy country, the rakyat have their rights to express their opinions and the rights to assemble. The rakyat only exercise their rights and this is the rights that are guaranteed by our Constitution. Malaysia as one of the United Nation Human Rights Council should know this better than others. The police should provide safety for the cyclists and not sabotage the campaign. May I know when did cycling become an offence in Malaysia? JERIT is only using cycling as a mean to express their opinions and demands. Please note that this is a democracy country, not a country run by the police. The rakyat is the boss of this country.

Another thing to highlight is the exploitation of child claimed by the police. On 20th December, when I am watching Buletin Utama, the Selangor Sultan is disappointed by some of the campaign organizers who are exploiting children for their campaign. I am very shocked when I heard this news. I have interviewed several children who participate in bicycle campaign. Most of the children especially the secondary school children know very well what they are up to. They have the awareness to issues such as draconian act ISA, higher cost of living etc. I am impressed by their awareness and I bet that some of the university students have no idea on such awareness.

So, as a rakyat of Selangor, I beg the Sultan Selangor to check his facts first not from the police and blogger like me, but to privately interview all the children who take part in bicycle campaign. I am sure that the Sultan will get a big surprise from the interview.

Lastly, long live the rakyat and democracy! 民主万岁!

Result

2008-12-19T18:02:00.000-08:00

Finally, the result have come out.

I have waited since 19 Dec to check but there is some delays caused by the server, therefore I only manage to check it 20 Dec.

I think the result is the worst in my whole semester. I got a C+ in one of my subject and it is taught by the 'beloved' lecturer that I blogged before.

But what can I do? Blamed the lecturer, I don't think so. For the future, I have to work harder to achieve better result.

Kelantan IV

2008-11-18T21:48:00.000-08:00

9th November (Final Day)

Our trip is coming to an end now. We wake up late then packed everything and prepare go to airport at 11am. Maklumlah our flight is 2.30pm. Better go earlier to avoid traffic jam.

Take some photos before we check in.

Another photo with Say Chin family.

Take the picture again at Kota Bharu Airport. But this time is going back to KL.

P/s: A big thank you to Say Chin and her family member. All the accommodation and foods are provided by her family. All the photos in Kelantan I, II, III & IV, the credits go to Kelly.

Thanks for all the people who makes this 4D3N trip wonderful.

-The End of Kelantan Trip-

Kelantan III

2008-11-18T21:14:00.000-08:00

8th November (3rd Day)

Third day of our trip is to tour around Tanah Merah, hometown of Say Chin. Tanah Merah is a small town, the busiest part of this town is the market. So we go around the market to have a look but imagine most of the peoples in the market stare at us. Reason? Because Sim and Vicky wear short pants (I mean very short). I guess is culture clash... KL vs KB.

Local food enjoyed by Sim & me. I can't 'tahan' her, yesterday she tried already, today eat somemore. Btw she mentions she wanna slim down, I bet her put on some weights after Kelantan tour.

Local food. If I am not mistaken is 'Nasi dagang'. Smell very weird but Sim enjoyed it very much.

A visit to Say Chin's former primary school S.R.J.K. (C) Yuk Cheng.

Another visit to Say Chin's father shop. 麻雀虽小，五脏俱全。

Our lunch for that day, Nasi Lemak. Then we go to Kota Bharu to send Sim back. Bye bye Sim, don't miss us, we will enjoy ourself. Hehe...... Then we go back to eat yesterday ABC, but the stall didn't open. Another disappointment.

Huh? Who say Chai Har don't know to ride motorcycle? Frankie, this is the proof. You judge for yourself.

Luckyly, the stall beside ABC is opened. This is the Nasi Kukus stall. Nasi Kukus is one of the famous Kelantan food, the ingredient includes Fried Chicken, Chilis and lot of spicy herbs. Damn nice...

Later, go back to Tanah Merah to rest.

-End of Day 3-

Kelantan II

2008-11-17T09:19:00.000-08:00

7th November (2nd day)

Our day starts with paying visits to Kelantan Temples at Tumpat. The temple there is very '灵' (miracle). So we go there to '算命' .

On the way to Tumpat, I saw the rubbish dispose without any environmental concern. Yup! Visit Kelantan 2008!

The biggest Sitting Buddha in South-East Asia. Another Malaysia Boleh!

Guan Gong, allow us to take photos with You. 多多保佑我们！

Next temple is the Sleeping Buddha. Wah! very fascinating!

We take a rest at the nearby coconut stall after visiting the Sleeping Buddha.

Artistic photos with coconuts...

Yummy! What a great relieve. I'm able to drink coconut water during hot weather.

We are going to have chicken rice as our lunch. The chicken is very crispy & delicious.

After lunch we went to Pantai Cahaya Bulan. It is windy at there.

Oh I see, according to local folks, Pantai Cahaya Bulan formerly known as Pantai Cinta Berahi (Translate will be Sexual Love Beach). Due to religion factor, the local government have to change the name of the beach.

Photos sessions at Rumah Melayu Pulau Pinang.

Old Istana gua...... I also not sure.

At last, ABC for our High Tea. The ABC's ice is very fine and is full of ingredients such as nuts, cendol, jagung, jelly etc.

Another Kelantan Specialty. Male and female must be separated when paying at the counters in any supermarket. Ridiculous rules!

Our dinner of the day is Siam food. Very nice but a bit disappointed because it is not spicy enough for me.

-End of Day 2-

Kelantan I

2008-11-17T02:55:00.000-08:00

6th November (1st day)

I'm going to Kelantan with my course mate (Sim, Vicky, Kelly & Chai Ling). We will go to visit Say Chin at the same time tour around Kelantan, more specific is Kota Bahru.

Sitting at LCCT's McD waiting for our Air Asia flight. The price for McD at there is more expensive than usual. But I still ate Sundae for my dessert.

Waiting at the departure flight. Vicky takes 'a few' photos. Sim also take some but much less than Vicky.

This is my first time sit plane. So excited... (you have to understand the feeling of 1st time).

Take some photos during the flight. (People first time sit aeroplane, so have to 留念) [keep for memory].

Arrived at Kota Bharu Airport. It only take 55 minutes to arrive... damn fast. If by bus need more than 12 hours.

The first photo we took together after arrived at Kota Bahru. Back (left to right) is Chai Ling, Kelly & Sim. In front (left to right) is me & Vicky.

Photos taken at Kota Bharu Airport with Sim. The interior is decorated with local art.

Another local art known as Wau. Actually we have taken many photos at the airport...

First stop is the museum. Camera is not allowed to bring inside, but we curi-curi take the photos. Hehehe!!! (Kids, don't try this at the museum.)

Our dinner for the day...... chicken chop. Wah!!! One of the best chicken chop I ever eat.

Finished our dinner. Yumm... very nice lah, highly recommended. Next time go must try, didn't try you will 'rugi'.

Kelly birthday is around the corner. We celebrate with her earlier. Happy Birthday Kelly, finally you got your 'golden key'.

Kelly seems like so excited... Yaya, we understand your feelings.

Cutting the cake is more sweeter... Her eyes are cover by her smile. Walau, so happy huh?

Oklah, we 'memang baik & murah hati'. Hope Kelly will get what she wish for. (This sure includes boyfriends)

-End of Day 1-

PP Stream

2008-10-31T07:14:00.000-07:00

Oh my God, I fell in love with PP Stream. It allows me to watch any drama, movies and anime without have to wait for the download. Yes, a lot of eastern and western drama and movies are available. It is like an 'Astro' but no need to pay for the fees. Wahaha...

PP Stream is a P2P streaming video software network. This software is from China. You can watch any drama and movies instantly. Instantly? Yes, too good to be true. Now I am watching few episodes of Desperate Housewives that I missed before, Ugly Betty season 3, Supernatural finale season 2 (TV 3 will only air on this Sunday) etc.

The cons of this program is most of the Cantonese drama and movies are in Mandarin (No syok lah when watching) but the English drama and movies are in English with Chinese subtitle.

I fell in love with PP Stream...... (actually is addicted).

Innocence

2008-10-21T07:25:00.000-07:00

'This innocence is brilliant,
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect,
please don't go away,
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it,
don't you let it pass you by'

The feeling of innocence is so amazing. Sometimes I just wish that I can be as innocence as a child, without worry about anything, live life to the greatest and enjoy what I'm doing without have to think much of the consequences.

By the way, I loved Avril Lavigne song, her songs are cool and match my music taste.

Comment

2008-10-17T16:07:00.000-07:00

I leave a comment on ~:*:~鸳鸯。蝴蝶梦之旅~:*:~, at the same time I also post it to my blog.

I also share the same sickness with you. Let me share my experience.

After a few days 3 persons were arrested under ISA, I start to chat with my course mate about this 'tragedy', seems like no one know about it, except only a few with social awareness (社会醒觉). Come on baby, this issue seems like the talk of the country, even at kopitiam peoples talk about it, yet UNIVERSITY students don't know about it, our university in very sorry state. This doesn't includes going out to protest.

When telling someone to go protest over ISA issues, the reaction they gives are 'WAH!!! we better study well first, all this things can be done when we grown up!' or 'I am afraid being expelled by university, charged by UUCA (draconian university law), blah blah blah... Let think from other perspective, protest is a form of expression, when all the means of expression didn't give any effect, protest is the last expression that we can do. It is guaranteed under Federal Constitutions. You think Malaysia independence free from protest? UMNO and Tunku Abdul Rahman didn't protest to pressure British? Yet the history books have been manipulated.

P/s: Suddenly can't stop writing, so write a very long comment. YOU don't only know how to talk, but at the same time also take some action. (Next time got protest, we go together.)

Plagiarism Again!!!

2008-10-16T23:17:00.000-07:00

Imagine your design project being plagiarized by other people/group!!!

When you think you wanna confront them, they will label you as stubborn, selfish etc.

What I am hoping is very simple, just acknowledge my group work in your project.

That's all, is easy. Please copy other works with dignity! They have put a lot of efforts to finish their design project too.

稻香

2008-10-16T07:27:00.000-07:00

自己听久了，发现喜欢上这首歌，加上他的歌词令人想起童年回忆。

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什麽人要这麽的脆弱堕落
请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好

不要这麽容易就想放弃就像我说的
追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机现在终於飞回我手里
所谓的那快乐赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了谁在偷笑呢
我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了
哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好
所谓的那快乐赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了谁在偷笑呢
我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了
哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好
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